Appearing in The Chamber on July 16

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Five Poems by Jack Harvey

Jack D. Harvey’s poetry has appeared in Scrivener, The Comstock Review, Valparaiso Poetry Review, Typishly Literary Magazine, The Antioch Review, The Piedmont Poetry Journal and elsewhere. The author has been a Pushcart nominee and over the years has been published in a few anthologies.

“Some Who Wander” Fiction by Doug Hawley

The author dabbles in sci fi, horror, crime, non-Hallmark romance, essay, humo(u)r, and memoir with not a trace of style or nuance published in the UK, USA, Canada, Iran, Netherlands, India, Germany, and Spain.  After actuarial work he writes, volunteers, hikes, snowshoes and collects music with editor Sharon and cat Kitzhaber in Lake Grove Oregon.  https://sites.google.com/site/aberrantword/

Three Flash Fiction Stories by Thomas Elson

Thomas Elson’s short stories, poetry, and flash fiction have been published in numerous venues, including Ellipsis, Better Than Starbucks, The Cabinet of Heed, Flash Frontier, Short Édition, Journal of Expressive Writing, The Selkie, The New Ulster, The Lampeter, and Adelaide. He divides his time between Northern California and Western Kansas. 

Interview with Author James Hanna

James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000

“dream eater” Poem by Brian J. Alvarado

Brian (@brahvocado) is a Puerto-Haitian Bronxite writer and performer. His work has been featured in RiverCraft, DenimSkin, Squawk Back, Contraposition, Beliveau, Trouvaille, The Quiver, Rye Whiskey, and Cajun Mutt, among others. He holds a BA in Creative Writing from Susquehanna University. https://brianalvarado.com/writing

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Appearing in The Chamber on July 16

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

Five Poems by Jack Harvey

Jack D. Harvey’s poetry has appeared in Scrivener, The Comstock Review, Valparaiso Poetry Review, Typishly Literary Magazine, The Antioch Review, The Piedmont Poetry Journal and elsewhere. The author has been a Pushcart nominee and over the years has been published in a few anthologies.

“Some Who Wander” Fiction by Doug Hawley

The author dabbles in sci fi, horror, crime, non-Hallmark romance, essay, humo(u)r, and memoir with not a trace of style or nuance published in the UK, USA, Canada, Iran, Netherlands, India, Germany, and Spain.  After actuarial work he writes, volunteers, hikes, snowshoes and collects music with editor Sharon and cat Kitzhaber in Lake Grove Oregon.  https://sites.google.com/site/aberrantword/

Three Flash Fiction Stories by Thomas Elson

Thomas Elson’s short stories, poetry, and flash fiction have been published in numerous venues, including Ellipsis, Better Than Starbucks, The Cabinet of Heed, Flash Frontier, Short Édition, Journal of Expressive Writing, The Selkie, The New Ulster, The Lampeter, and Adelaide. He divides his time between Northern California and Western Kansas. 

Interview with Author James Hanna

James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000

“dream eater” Poem by Brian J. Alvarado

Brian (@brahvocado) is a Puerto-Haitian Bronxite writer and performer. His work has been featured in RiverCraft, DenimSkin, Squawk Back, Contraposition, Beliveau, Trouvaille, The Quiver, Rye Whiskey, and Cajun Mutt, among others. He holds a BA in Creative Writing from Susquehanna University. https://brianalvarado.com/writing

Support The Chamber Magazine

Visit The Chamber Magazine’s Dark Matters Gift Shop or show your appreciation by buying us a cup of coffee.

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Appearing in The Chamber on July 16

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

Five Poems by Jack Harvey

Jack D. Harvey’s poetry has appeared in Scrivener, The Comstock Review, Valparaiso Poetry Review, Typishly Literary Magazine, The Antioch Review, The Piedmont Poetry Journal and elsewhere. The author has been a Pushcart nominee and over the years has been published in a few anthologies.

“Some Who Wander” Fiction by Doug Hawley

The author dabbles in sci fi, horror, crime, non-Hallmark romance, essay, humo(u)r, and memoir with not a trace of style or nuance published in the UK, USA, Canada, Iran, Netherlands, India, Germany, and Spain.  After actuarial work he writes, volunteers, hikes, snowshoes and collects music with editor Sharon and cat Kitzhaber in Lake Grove Oregon.  https://sites.google.com/site/aberrantword/

Three Flash Fiction Stories by Thomas Elson

Thomas Elson’s short stories, poetry, and flash fiction have been published in numerous venues, including Ellipsis, Better Than Starbucks, The Cabinet of Heed, Flash Frontier, Short Édition, Journal of Expressive Writing, The Selkie, The New Ulster, The Lampeter, and Adelaide. He divides his time between Northern California and Western Kansas. 

Interview with Author James Hanna

James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000

“dream eater” Poem by Brian J. Alvarado

Brian (@brahvocado) is a Puerto-Haitian Bronxite writer and performer. His work has been featured in RiverCraft, DenimSkin, Squawk Back, Contraposition, Beliveau, Trouvaille, The Quiver, Rye Whiskey, and Cajun Mutt, among others. He holds a BA in Creative Writing from Susquehanna University. https://brianalvarado.com/writing

“The Tallyman” Fiction by James Hanna

You don’t know me, but I know you. I’m the one who notices when you ignore a bum begging for quarters. I’m the one who sees you when you cut someone off in traffic. Don’t think these matters are petty because you are not on my list. The only reason I have not come for you is that you are not worth my time.

So what is my name? Better you should ask me, What is my name to you? Now if I haven’t come for you, my name could be Tolerance. But if you turn into some kind of big shot, you might know me as Nathan Skudder. Tycoons and honchos tremble at the mention of Nathan Skudder. So choose your transgressions carefully—you don’t want to know me by my true name. Stick to sins better handled by churches or traffic courts.

Just who do I bother with? you ask. Who is worth my time? Nobody—the sword I carry is only fit for the Devil himself. But I stoop to noticing lying moguls who steal other people’s ideas. I notice hacks who praise only what’s common and let geniuses die in the dust. And I’m very aware of starlets who pretend to be what they aren’t—those playing the role of heroines while acting like Hollywood whores.

Do I dispense justice swiftly? No, that would be an indulgence. Justice is better served slowly with discipline and restraint. Unless the noose tightens gradually, unless the blade is delayed, the transgressor will escape the full measure of the punishment he deserves.

Do you wonder where you will find me? You will find me where ideas are stolen. You will find me where prodigies weep. You will find me where truth is brokered by bandits then trampled underfoot. I am persistent but honorable, so please remember this: if I should ever come for you, I will look into your eyes. I will not give my sword to a surrogate nor hide behind a desk. That would deprive me of stature and you of your fullest dissert.

Can you outsmart me? you wonder. No—I am far too intelligent. I have the mind of a seer, and I read two books a week. Not the sort of drivel that poisons the public mind, but masterpieces accessible only to those with expanding souls. Thank god, my mother passed at my birth and I was raised in an orphanage: the place was so cruel and alien that it fostered my kinship with books. I may hide behind the persona of an unkempt derelict, but I am intimate with all the classics. I can recite The Faerie Queene. Spenser, Shakespeare, and Milton are like bosom friends to me. It is their collective spirit that I pour into my art. It is their unsullied wisdom upon which I have honed my wit. So do not try to outsmart me or pierce my searing light. That would be like a pygmy shooting arrows at the sun.

Now since I am the hunter, it falls that I also am hunted. But the moguls that hunt me are cowardly; their faces are always well-hidden. The women that hunt me are only brave when their captor is celluloid—when they star in such abominable productions as Queen of the Amazons. No, moguls and whores will not hunt me themselves—they will only send surrogates. They cannot wield a thirsty blade, and guns make them pee their pants.

So who is the one that hunts me? He is called the Tallyman—he told me that in a dream. I have only seen him a couple of times, but I know he is after me. The Tallyman is honorable; he is also very brave. His reputation precedes him because he almost always catches his prey. I would not hunt the Tallyman although he is hunting me. I only hunt those that lack honor. Moguls and Hollywood whores.

*

My pursuit of the Tallyman’s patrons was decided long ago. After all, it is scripts that rule us—scripts that determine our lives. My scripts are those of an oracle and an author ahead of his time. The moguls are scripted to feed upon scraps like pilot fish trailing a shark. I have sent the moguls a dozen fine screenplays—not a word do I ever hear back. They are shallow swimmers—these moguls. My drifts and currents elude them. They are no more capable of fathoming my depths that a sink might contain an ocean. And yet they peck at my art in the manner that seagulls might strike a beached dolphin. Lines and passages I have composed turn up in the trashiest of films: regrettable chestnuts like Spiderman 3 and Maleficent Mistress of Evil. Ah, rivers that start in heaven end up in the vilest of swamps.

Does the Tallyman seek to kill me? Of course, but how happy that would make me. Am I not a quixotic tramp? Do I not have a martyred soul? If my quests remain true then the day when I die will be better than the day I was born. We are born to innocence and sorrow, but we may pass on to omnipotence. But although I admire the Tallyman, I choose not to be grateful to him. I do not wish to be indebted to one who would cut my throat. And so I concede to the pettiest of scripts: the instinct to flee like a squirrel. What a mockery our instincts make of us—we are no more developed than insects.

But back to the subject of comeuppance—the message I wish to deliver. Do I ever make exceptions to those I have vowed to destroy? Yes, but I only did it once. Remember that starlets are spellbinders—they are skillful in their deceits. I once emailed a starlet whose name I won’t mention, but suffice it to say that she touched my heart while performing from one of my scripts. I was also impressed that she emailed me back and called me her sweetest fan. Was she worthy of me—no, she was not—but with her I was charitable. I decided the pleasure of bedding her was worth the theft of my work.

Oh, chicanery, your name is woman. Oh, deceit your name is Eve. Not a month went by before she appeared in a flick with a bedroom scene. Not even the lustiest of centaurs, not even a mongrel in heat, not even the commonest of sluts went at it harder than she. It was bad enough that she had betrayed me by fucking a far lesser man, but she did not show the slightest embarrassment in putting her lust on display. I vowed that my revenge would be total, I swore my rout would be sweet, and yet I knew that the cruelest of vengeance would hardly level the books. In every way conceivable, that bitch had stolen from me.

And yet, she bewitches me still, she still has a hold on my heart. When I showed up in the Mission District where she was seeking unmerited glory, I was holding a bouquet of roses instead of the knife she deserved. As usual, my knife was strapped to my shin, but it was not intended for her. From her, I only wanted a smile or maybe her hand on my cheek. I wanted only the merest acknowledgment of what she owed to me. So deep was my degradation, so paralyzed my heart, that I wished only to join her worshippers and cast myself at her feet.

A film crew was stationed on the street, and its members were waiting for her. No patron of manners—she. No fan of decorum—she. She was content to keep them waiting, but this was clearly her right. Her debt was only to me, and I wanted just a crumb. A friendly glance would do me. Or the merest nod of her head.

Two security guards were looking at me as I wandered onto the set. A couple of paunchy thugs who were not worthy of being her protectors. “Hey runt, where ya think yer goin’,” one asked me. He was looking at me as though I, and not he, was a boil on the face of humanity.

I showed the greatest of patience as I uttered my reply. “I don’t think I’m going anywhere,” I said. “I am sure of my destination.”  

“Get outta here, you little bum,” he yelled, “or you’ll end up in the gray bar hotel.”

It was not enough that he had interrupted me, he had insulted me as well. And yet my patience endured as I drew the knife from the sheath on my shin. A bullet between the eyes is what that lout deserved, but I am a merciful paladin and do not take vengeance upon pigs. I presented only the tip of my knife, which I held at a discreet distance.

The pair drew their service revolvers so quickly, you would have thought I was Osama bin Laden. “Drop it,” said one, but I clutched the knife and said, “Gentleman, please let me pass.” We stood there for several seconds—the most improbable of champions. They, a couple of wannabe cops who hoped I might make them heroes. I, who wished only to place a bouquet at the feet of my beloved. But had the brutes filled me with bullets, the glory would have been mine. Remember, there is no better passage than one spawned by romantic ends. Heaven will ring with cheers of the righteous while seraphim carry you home. Oh, let me like a soldier fall upon some open plain. My chest expanding to the ball to wipe out every stain. This Joycean ballad filled my mind as I waited for them to shoot.

But I was struck down not by a bullet but a bag from a beanbag gun. And my chest did not expand to it—I was hammered in the groin. In my quest for epic glory, in my zeal to dwell among angels, I had somehow misjudged the weapon one of those assholes was holding. Cheated, I lay upon the ground as angels passed me by. Not even a cherub will stoop for a warrior felled by a beanbag gun.

*

I was not alone in the paddy wagon as I rode to the city jail. Sitting on the bench across from me was a tall, cadaverous man. His eyes were the eyes of a hunter, calculating and alert, and his nostrils swelled like those of a tiger picking up a scent. At first, I did not recognize him because he had grown a full beard. A master of disguise is the Tallyman, and for this, I respected him more.

“Don’t let it be here,” I said, an appeal to his better angels.

The Tallyman shrugged and raised his hands—his wrists were chained like mine. But his hands were thick and sinewy, so that did not console me. At any given moment, he could have torn off his restraints, so I borrowed a line from Sir Walter Scott, which I hoped might keep him at bay. I said, “Do you know that beasts of game the privilege of the chase may claim?”

His brow knotted into a furrow, he licked his lips like a wolf, and his breath boomed through his nostrils like a black, approaching storm. Thankfully, he did not bare his teeth—they would surely have dripped like stalactites, but his thoughts bore the shock of electricity when they buzzed inside my head. It will not be here, he answered. That would cheat us both.

Thank god, he was unlike his mistress—that vampish, unprincipled slut. She would have cut my throat in a second had she the sand to do her own work. No, the Tallyman has standards, he will not slaughter me like a hog. He surely knew the depth of my grief and how totally I have been robbed.

*

I have been booked many times in the San Francisco County Jail, so I felt no discomfort when the cop who arrested me returned me to its bowels. No, I stood like John the Baptist, whose martyrdom rivaled my own, and I did not blink as the booking camera captured my likeness once more. “Nathan Scudder,” muttered the booking sergeant. “Whoja threaten this time? Seems every time I turn around, they’re hauling you in here again.”

He showed not a flicker of interest as he filmed my fingerprints, he did not even bother to glance my way as the arresting cop patted me down. No, only the Tallyman pities me enough to cut me some slack. Only he knows the torment I suffer from those who have stolen my art. And where had the Tallyman gone to? I did not spot him inside the jail. He must have vanished into the city to hunt me another day.

The following week, I hung my head as I stood before a judge. It is best to show some humility when you stand before the bench. If you lie and pretend to be humble, the courts will turn you loose; if you shout out the truth like a prophet, you will meet a prophet’s demise.

The judge, some fool with a face like a monkey, was reading my psych report. The report had been prepared by a jail shrink—a clod with bottle-thick glasses and breath that stank of garlic. The jerk had interviewed me for only five minutes before putting a brand on my soul. No doubt, he had described me as a paranoid schiz—psychiatrists love those words. There is not a seer under the sun whom a shrink will not scar with that term. Were Jesus to return for the second coming and preach salvation to the masses, I have no doubt the psychiatrists would call him a paranoid schiz.

The judge put down the report and squinted at me. “So you’re hounding celebrities again,” he said. “Nathan, are you taking your meds?”

I nodded like a bobblehead. “Four times a day,” I said.

In fact, I was palming my meds and flushing them down the toilet. No brain- dead existence for me. No life without vision for me. It is better to soar like an eagle and be ostracized from the flock then to hop about with shattered wings and feed in garbage dumps.

I plead to a charge of aggravated assault, and the judge gave me three years of probation. He also ordered me to stay away from she who had stolen my art. She who had raped my very soul while wallowing in lust, she who teased me like a siren then abandoned me without a thought. I bowed my head like a beggar and agreed to the stay-away order. But why did the court not order her to free her talons from my heart?

And there you have it. By bowing my head, I was allowed to return to the streets. I was permitted to wear the mark of Cain and live in the Land of Nod.

*

I am wholly convinced that the only place for an honest man is jail. But I am not an honest man—I am deceitful and slippery and sly. “Be cunning like the serpent.” Were these not Jesus’ words? And so with our savior’s blessing, I hide my true face from the world.

But the probation officer they gave me this time, a stringy fellow from Kenya, was skeptical of me when I reported to his office after taking my leave of the jail. “Meester Skudder,” he said in clipped English, “how come you accepted probation? According to your presentence report, you’re a vicious, little bum. You live on public assistance, you have never held a job, and you’ve had twenty arrests for terrorist threats and brandishing deadly weapons. It will just be a matter of days, my friend, unteel you are back in jail.”

“Have you been in jail, sister,” I asked him because he was already pissing me off.

I ask the questions,” he answered. “And it’s Meester Oneybuchi to you.”

“Well, ask yourself if you’re leading a life of quiet desperation? As a minion to the Philistines, I suspect that is the case.”

“Quoting dead authors won’t help you,” he snapped. “Do you think I have not been to college? Do you think I have not read Thoreau?”

“I don’t think you read him well enough to know that he was a fraud. He stayed only two years in that cabin of his, he was dumb enough to burn down a forest, and if he had spent more than one night in jail, he’d have accepted probation too.”

Ooglybuchi, or whatever his name was, pushed his spectacles up the bridge of his nose. All the time we were talking, he kept adjusting his specs on his nose.

“You seem well-read,” he said, “so how come you can’t stay out of jail? You are thirty years old, sir—isn’t it time you showed a bit of sense?”

“Jail is a good place to contemplate,” I said. “I learned that from Thoreau.”

Ooglybuchi pinched his nostrils and said, “We are off to a bad start, Meester Skudder. Please come back in one week for a pee test. I must make sure you are taking your meds.”

*

“Simplify, simplify, simplify,” said that wordsmith of the woods. I’m not sure why he said it three times, but it’s still advice I follow. And so I live in a subsidized room in the Dalt Hotel on Turk Street—a room with nothing in it but a bed, a chair, and a cot. Except for the noise tenants make in the hallway, I have no distractions at all—that’s why I have written a dozen scripts of exceptional quality. Scripts that I mailed to Warner Brothers and Universal Studios.

Upon returning to my simple abode, I took a refreshing nap. Afterward, I picked up my iPad and googled my beloved. I check on her once or twice a day to see if she has repented—it would be callous of me to punish her if she is in the throes of regret. But she gave me no hint of contrition—no nunnery did she seek. She was sitting in a restaurant on Mission Street, batting her eyes like a hooker, and telling a fawning reporter the plot of her latest flick. Word for word, it was the exact same script I had mailed her studio three months ago.

“Bitch!” I shouted. “Pickpocket! Have you no shame at all?” I cursed her for more than a minute—even after my throat was raw, even after some jerk in the room next to mine started banging on the wall. Let him bang—this was no time for etiquette, this was no time for restraint. This was the hour to give her some part of the grief she had given me. Tit for tat, I always say—is that not the way of the world? And since her tit was off-limits to me, I was determined to make do with tat.

She must be stopped, I reasoned, but how? An idea popped into my head. I grasped the restraining order the court had served on me, and I dabbed it with a bit of Wite-Out then interchanged our names. She would not know the order was a forgery when I pressed it into her palm. She would only think that she no longer had license to shatter my peace of mind.

Oh, genius, your name is Skudder, I thought as I hurried out to the street. No wonder I had written so many fine scripts. No wonder she was stealing from me. Yes, she deserved to be pimp-slapped, but a restraining order would do. After all, she could no more withstand my genius than a moth might resist a flame.

I dashed to the movie set on Mission Street where they were reshooting a couple of scenes, and I caught a fleeting glimpse of her as I elbowed my way through the crowd. Oh, to feel the touch of her hand as I gave her the restraining order. Oh, to hear her apology as I unburdened my grief to her. An apology over dinner would do. We could share a bottle of wine.

The two piggish, security guards stood in my path while she disappeared into a trailer. A will-o’-the-wisp on gossamer wings could not have vanished so quickly.

“How about a filet mignon?” I shouted before she shut the door.

“How ’bout some black-eyed peas,” said one of the guards as he pointed the beanbag gun at me.

In my haste, I had forgotten to bring my knife, so I offered no resistance. No, I stood as still as the statue of David while this cop I know cuffed me up. “Skudder,” he said as he set the strands, “when are ya gonna learn?” He was overweight and out of shape, and he wheezed as he patted me down. Was he the best the police had to offer? I sighed and shook my head.

“My cross is not to learn,” I informed him. “My cross is to shine and be scorned.”

 “Far as I can tell,” he drawled, “you got no cross at all. Not unless being a public nuisance can be counted as a cross.”

The guard with the beanbag gun snorted and said, “Whadaya gonna do with him, Abe? This is the second time we hadda deal with him this month.”

The cop shrugged. “Chew him out then let him go. I ran his name—he’s clean. All I can book him for is trespass, and the DA won’t prosecute that. Hell, the DA won’t prosecute anything that ain’t a felony.”

The guard slung his bean thrower onto his shoulder and spoke as though he’d been cheated at cards. “That’s San Francisco for you,” he said. “If he comes back again, we’ll call you.”

“If he comes back again, kick his ass,” said the cop.

The cop pushed me into the cage of his patrol car then drove me to Pier 39. After he let me out of the car and took the bracelets off me, he said, “You’d be in San Quentin, Nathan, if the DA had any balls. It’s a pain in the ass to keep busting you just so the Sheriff can let you go.”

“It seems payback eludes us both,” I said as I stood there rubbing my wrists. “But if it’s any consolation, you put on those shackles too tight.”

“Whadaya want?” snapped the oaf. “A goddam apology.”

“I’ll let it go this time,” I warned him. “I have other things to do. But the next time you bruise my wrists, I’ll file a complaint on you.”

How nice it was to have the brute by the balls—to grin while he glared at me. When one is a suiter of light, good fortune will be his bride.

“Do me a favor,” the cop said. “Stay here and feed the seagulls. I don’t have the patience to bust you a second time today.”

 Like a dog with his tail between his legs, he got back into his squad car, and I felt like I had slain Goliath as I watched him drive away.

Since doing God’s work made me hungry, I took the asshole’s advice. I bought a bread bowl full of chowder, found a bench on Pier 39, and tossed some crust to the seagulls while I sat there eating my lunch.

*

I hate to admit it, but sometimes I feel a bit sorry for that cop. I secretly call him Sisyphus because their tasks are much the same. I am the boulder that dude has to roll up a steep hill every day—the boulder that bounces back down the hill the moment it gets to the top. So I decided to give him a break and stay out of his hair for awhile. I decided to return to my Spartan abode and work on a couple of scripts.

I walked no further than the Embarcadero subway because it’s a pretty long hike back to Turk Street. As usual, the fare booth was empty, so I hopped right over the turnstile. There are indignities I do not stoop to, and one of them is paying train fare. Since the world owes me a million dollars, I should ride in limousines.

As I sat on a bench on the southbound platform, waiting for the train to arrive, I got the sudden feeling that someone was shadowing me. Turning my head, I spotted the Tallyman standing beneath the exit sign. He was taller than a grenadier, his skin was fishbelly white, and he was looking at me like a bill collector about to knock on my door. He turned his eyes away from me when I stared in his direction, but he followed me onto the subway and sat down on a seat opposite mine.

As we sat face-to-face, the doors hissed shut and the train pulled out of the station. Would it be now? I wondered, and my heart began to thud.

He stroked his beard and smiled at me, a smile that did not reach his eyes. I could spot the bulge of a dagger behind his seedy coat.

“Will you give me time?” I asked him. “I’m the pigeon, not the hawk.”

His measured stare suggested that my time was running out, but he held his hand up politely and showed me the face of his watch. A generous huntsman was he, an enduring sportsman was he. Yes, space and time the stag would get ere hound was slipped or bow was bent. I sat through several station stops, plotting my escape. When the train pulled into Civic Center, I bolted through the doors.

*

“I went to the woods,” said that braggart, Thoreau, “because I wished to live.” Well, I had no woods to go to, but I certainly lusted to live. So I adopted another strategy to elude the Tallyman. Whenever I heard loud footsteps in the hallway outside my room, I quickly opened my window and escaped to the street below. Whenever I went to the post office to mail out new scripts, I varied my route and kept checking behind me to make sure I was not being followed. Even when I returned to the probation department to keep my appointment with Ooglybuchi, I entered the building through the back entrance and rode the jail elevator up to his floor.

“Meester Skudder,” said Ooglybuchi as I sat in the chair by his desk. “I have a police report on you. It seems you violated your stay away order before eet was even entered into the system.”

“Ya gonna arrest me?” I asked him.

He shrugged. “There would be no point in that, sir. I could charge you with violating your stay away order, but nothing will come of eet. Your victim won’t show up to testify, and the court won’t enforce the subpoena. Movie stars get stalked all the time—they never show up in court.”

“That’s because they hire assassins,” I said, and I mentioned my nemesis. I said only Melville’s leviathan, a creature purer than snow, had suffered a hunter as relentless as the one pursuing me. I said I would deem it a favor if I was locked away for awhile.

“On what charge, Meester Skudder?” he asked. “Have you committed a more serious crime? Unless you assassinate someone yourself, the courts will not keep you in jail.”

“Piss test me,” I said desperately. “I haven’t been taking my meds.”

“That I cannot do either,” he said.

“You promised to piss test me,” I insisted.

He shrugged. “That was last week, Meester Skudder. Due to a recent budget cut, we lost our contract with the lab.”

 “You’re supposed to represent justice,” I bawled, “and you’re sitting their making excuses.”

“May I be blunt, Meester Skudder,” he said. “I am buried in cases, the courts here are useless, and there is no excuse for you.”

“So you’re abandoning me to a garrotter. An eater of broken meats.”

“Meester Skudder,” he said, “I’m not interested if someone is on your trail.”

“Lock me up, fool,” I shouted. “Is there no justice under the sun?”

Ooglybuchi adjusted his specs on his nose then patted me on the wrist. “Do not worry, Meester Skudder,” he said. “I think justice is coming for you.”

*

Am I a hypocrite? you ask. Well, since the law is toothless, I choose to break it at will. So why, you ask, should I expect the law to shelter me? To this, I reply that there are greater laws than the pablum dispensed by the courts. There is the law of retribution, the Code of Hammurabi, the apocalyptic justice pronounced in the Book of Revelation. “Behold a pale horse!” its author screamed to the robbers, the swindlers, the whores. And who sits upon that horse but I whom the angels have decreed. And yet, I am more dupe than destroyer. And yet, I am more patsy than prince. And yet, I seek only a particle of the pound of flesh I am due. So if the law ever musters an ounce of gumption, a scrap of fortitude, it is not unreasonable to demand that this scrap be given to me.

But since the law is a pussy, I must slink through the streets like a hound. Since the law is a joke, I must hide away like a leper. Even when I am sleeping, I don’t have a second of peace. I have the same dream night after night, and I wake up in the coldest of sweats. In my dream, I wander city streets beneath a crescent moon. There is not a person anywhere—I am utterly alone. Finally, I come upon a massive whore who is standing under a streetlamp. She is drunk with the blood of poets, she is black with leprosy, and at her feet lie the severed heads of Chaucer, Milton, and Proust. “Who are you?” I cry. She grins like a pumpkin. “You know who I am,” she purrs. She then lifts her dress and spreads her labia, and her hole is a bottomless pit. “Come, come,” she says in a voice warm as piss. “I have plenty of room for you.”

Oh, wretched dream, you have turned me into a craven malcontent—you have forced me to endure law’s delay and the scorn of despised love. Like Hamlet, I must suffer the slings and spears of fortune run amuck—a buffer to only the darker afflictions that lurk beyond the grave. So I continued to endure the theft of my lifeblood, I continued to hide behind dumpsters, I even refrained from proclaiming my love to she who had shredded my heart. But, finally, I suffered such a blow to my pride that I could keep silent no more.

*

Am I a narcissist? you wonder now. Of course, but where is the rub? The moguls, directors, and Hollywood harlots are boasters far greater than me. Consider the tedious galas we are forced to endure each year: the Oscars, the Grammys, the Golden Globes, the Hollywood Film Awards. These are but a few of the accolades they heap upon themselves. And where am I in these celebrations of ostentation and pomp? I am the pitiful ghost at the feast, I am the hobo at the door, I am the footman left out in the cold while the fires of foppery blaze. So do not hold me in contempt when I confess my self-love to you. Were it not for the laurels I grant myself, I would gather no glory at all.

You now wonder, Am I a masochist?  I assure you the answer is no. But at times I indulge in self-flagellation that sinners alone should endure. Why else did I recently watch the Oscars on the television in my hovel? Why else did I sit through three fucking hours of speeches and phony applause? Had I been staked to an anthill with a desert sun searing my eyes, I would not have suffered a greater ordeal than enduring those endless awards. But, at least, that monotonous marathon afforded me her true measure. At least, I could fathom her cheapness when she accepted the Best Actress Award. Batting her eyes while freezing her smile, she tossed out kudos as though they were dimes. She thanked her director, she thanked her producer, she thanked her grandfather. She thanked her mother, her hairdresser, and half the men she had fucked. Had the master of ceremonies not intervened and ended the charade, I have no doubt she’d have thanked her chihuahua and Siamese cat as well. But not a word did she spare for me, her rock, her stalwart Pygmalion—the muse that had made her prize possible by supplying the script to her flick. This was the final outrage, this was the proverbial straw, that was the withering climax of my winter of discontent.

“Whore!” I shouted. “Charlatan !” I spared her no insult. But when the dimwit next door started pounding the wall, I banked my consuming rage. To plan my reprisal, to serve vengeance cold, I decided to take a walk through the streets and let the night air clear my head.

It was a measure of my desperation, a gauge to my discontent, that I strode the streets for an hour and cursed with every step. Wouldn’t the Tallyman nab me if I abandoned the rules of the chase—if I failed to duck into alleys or hide behind dumpsters and parked cars? No, I think not—he would allow me a moment of vulnerability. He would know that compassion was due to one so cheated as me.

 I managed to talk myself out of my fear, but I froze when I spotted him. He was sitting on a bench in Jefferson Square Park, watching me like an owl. He seemed to be embarrassed, as though he were late for a date, but the pallid cast of a street lamp made him look as pale as a ghoul. Did he know I did not want his pity? Did he know I did not want his shame? Did he know his maudlin sympathy had only diminished me more?

Earn your thirty pieces of silver!” I shouted. “Don’t sit like a crow on a fence!”

It seemed like an act of charity when he slowly rose from the bench, when he reached into his jacket where his dagger surely lay. Were courage not so fickle, I would have offered him my throat, but my bravado fled me as quickly as water down a drain. How tall he was, I marveled. How glowering his eyes.

I ran like a hunted rabbit. I ran like a greyhound on crack. I ran because my only choice was to run away or fight. Oh, Father in glorious heaven, have we no greater options than these? Are we disallowed thought or reflection? Are we disallowed nuance or calm? Oh, great and mighty progenitor, your script has made fools of us all.

*

Fight or flight. Such despicable choices should not have a season at all, so when I returned to my room, I vowed to mitigate my ire. Yes, the wrath of Ezekiel guided my hand as I wrote her another email, but because I still loved her dearly, I tempered the prophet’s resolve. I made no mention of ravishing her or slashing her ivory throat. I promised her I would do no more than cut off the tip of her tongue. After all, was she not a victim as well? Were others not pulling her strings? Had the moguls who had pilfered my gift not plundered her beauty as well?

I pressed the send button, releasing the email as though I were freeing a dove. And then I buried my face in my hands and wept for both of us.

*

After several more days of hiding in alleys and ducking behind parked cars, I received a text on my cellphone—a message from Ooglybuchi. Rejoice, I must put you in jail, it read. Please report to me at once. Relieved that my keeper had developed a spine, I hurried down to the Hall of Justice, and the wings of destiny lifted me as I mounted the stairs to his office.

“Meester Skudder,” Ooglybuchi said as I sat on the chair by his desk. “I have no choice—the probation chief insists that I lock you up.”

He seemed almost apologetic as he removed a pair of handcuffs from his desk, and I felt a seer’s obligation to set his mind at ease.

“Consider it prophecy,” I replied, and I offered him my wrists.

Ignoring my gesture, he adjusted his glasses and showed me the police report. “So why deed you threaten to cut out her tongue?”

“Ezekiel would want nothing less.”

“And what do you want, Nathan Skudder?” he asked.

“If it’s all the same with Ezekiel,” I admitted. “I would rather not cut out her tongue.”

Was it my abiding love for her that had forced this concession from me, or did I simply wish to keep her intact so she could keep on performing my scripts?

Bravo, Meester Skudder,” Ooglibuchi replied. “That is very smart thinking, my friend. She may win another Oscar and give you some credit this time.”

The chuckle in his voice annoyed me, and I’m not a man easily mocked, but I strained to control my temper as I held out my wrists once again.

“Lock me up,” I insisted. “She can win all the Oscars she wants.”

“Put those hands behind your back,” he said, as he clicked the strands into place.

After he had secured my wrists and set the safety locks, he said, “I weel make a prophecy too. You’ll be out in a couple of weeks.”

*

Two weeks later, I puffed out my chest as I stood before a judge. I even curled my lip so I would look like a public menace. The judge, an old woman too small for her robe, reminded me of a vulture. Her eyes combed the spectator’s section as though she were searching for carrion.

“Is the complainant here?” she cawed.

“No, your honor,” the court clerk replied.

“Was the complainant served the subpoena?”

The clerk rose from her desk and handed the judge the receipt of service.

“Celebrities,” the judge muttered as though uttering a dirty word. “Why do they bother to file charges if they choose not to show up in court?”

She tossed the probation report aside then glanced in my direction. “You are free to go, Mister Skudder,” she snapped. “I don’t want to see you here again.”

“Keep me in jail,” I pleaded. “I’m not free to go anywhere.”

“What are you trying to say?” she snapped.

“Captain Ahab is after me.”

“I’m sorry about that,” she chided. “Go file a police report.”

 I lingered at the podium and checked out the gallery. Although the courtroom was packed, I spotted him right away. He was sitting on a pew near the doorway and he appeared to be asleep, but his eyes popped open the moment the bailiff led me toward the holding tank.

“Is it assured?” I called to him.

It’s in the bank, he replied, and he winked like a conspirator before the bailiff locked me back up.

As I sat by myself in the holding tank, I trembled like a hare. Should I have called the judge a cunt? I wondered. Would that have delayed my release? At that moment, it seemed that my whole life was nothing but missed opportunities. So tight was the grief that gripped my chest, so barren the drought in my soul, that when Ooglybuchi entered the tank, I was glad for his company.

“It seems you’re an oracle also,” I said as he sat down on the bench beside me.

He sighed as though chastised and said to come see him as soon as I was out of jail.

“How hospitable of you,” I snapped. “Are you going to serve cookies and tea?”

“Meester Skudder,” he said. “I have accommodated you as much as the law will allow.”

“The law is a pussy.”

“Even so,” he replied, “you are living on borrowed time. My friend, do you really believe there is no justice under the sun?”

“Is that another prophecy?” 

“It is merely an observation. In Kenya, a parasite like you would have disappeared a long time ago.”

“The lot of all prophets,” I grumbled.

“It is the lot of all stalkers as well.”

“Lock me up or I’ll kick your ass.”

He smiled and lowered his eyes. “My friend,” he said, “you hide among shadows. Your threat is an empty boast. How can I save you from phantoms when you are already a ghost?”

*

I was let out of jail that same morning and met my destiny right away. He was standing outside the maingate, writing into a notebook. The moment I stepped from the sallyport, he put the notebook away. He then gazed at me, and his eyes were as injured as those of Banquo’s ghost.

“Is it assured?” I asked him again.

It’s in the bank, he replied.

I sprinted to Valencia Street then hopped aboard a bus. I was determined not to perish without my dagger in my hand. Far better a Viking’s haven, the island of Valhalla, than to have no oasis awaiting me when I entered the void to come.

Arriving at my tenement building, I dashed into my room. I then snatched my knife from under my pillow and named it Providence. If Beowulf can name his blade, why not I? Was I facing a beast less unearthly? Had my date with darkness not come? When fighting the reaper, it is best to look him fearlessly in the eyes—to let him know that the dusk he inhabits cannot match the darkness in you.

Was I hoping a warrior’s resolve would frighten him away? Was I gambling that he had no stomach for the ringing of steel striking steel? If so, my hopes dissolved the moment I hopped through my window. He was waiting for me on the sidewalk, a taco in his hand. So unaffected was he by my bluster that he was having a casual lunch. But the hunger in his eyes remained as he munched upon beans and rice. Clearly, his appetite would not be sated by such pedestrian fare. I did not doubt that when he finished the taco, he would feast on my heart as well.

I ran to Golden Gate Park, but I spotted him under a tree, so I caught a bus to Chinatown where I hoped to buy some time. Spotting a Buddhist Temple, my heart leapt like a fawn. Why not ascend to Nirvana instead? That would not be a difficult task. Surely, I was a worthy candidate for selflessness and light? Had I not led a life of self-denial? Had I not suffered for my faith? Had I not loved a sinful woman in a manner both generous and chaste? Yes, Nirvana would do me just fine, so I hurried into the temple. As I knelt upon a prayer mat before the holy perch, the statue of Buddha looked down upon me and smiled like a happy drunk.

After an hour, I strode from the temple, suffused with a heavenly glow. He was waiting for me on the sidewalk, but his gaze was inhibited. His eyes seemed to say, I will not take your life when your soul is filled with light. No, not when an angel might claim you. Not when you’re primed for great flight.

“So how will I find my deliverance?” I shouted.

It’s in the bank, he said.

Was that a riddle? Was that a challenge? Was he still making sport of me? Or was he simply waiting for me to devolve before he cut out my heart? Whatever his thoughts, I knew that I would not get another chance.

“How much longer?” I hollered.

It will be soon, he replied.

As I dashed down the street, I struggled with the mystery of his words. It’s in the bank? Was this something more than a cruel and mocking jibe? The world owes me a million dollars, and I have never collected a cent. 

It was not until I spotted a Wells Fargo branch that I finally unlocked the riddle. Whipping my blade from the sheath on my shin, I dashed into the building. “Give me your assets!” I hollered. “Give me your liberty bonds!” The young lady I grabbed as a hostage reminded me of her. Her tits were as shapely, her ass was as taut, her shriek seemed frozen in time. She even batted her heavy eyelashes as though they were butterfly wings. But this time, I would not be dissuaded. This time, I would not be fooled. I kept the knife against her throat until I heard a police siren wail.

How fitting it was that Officer Sisyphus burst into the bank. His pistol was out of his holster, and he pointed it at my chest. When I let my blade clatter upon the floor, he grinned like a lottery winner.

“This time we gotcha, Skudder,” he said. “Put cher hands behind yer back.”

*

So where am I now? you ask. I’m at the Federal Medical Center in Ayr, Massachusetts. It’s a therapeutic correctional facility twenty miles from Walden Pond. I am here for ten years, a stretch that puts Thoreau’s petty sojourn to shame. The feds could have given me more time, but they thought I was out of my head. Oh, irony, thy name is Nathan. Oh, stealth thy name is Skudder. My mind was never clearer than when I pretended to rob that bank.

“Simplify, simplify, simplify,” were that hermit’s most famous words. And there is nothing more basic than a cell on a lockdown range. A bunk, a cot, an impenetrable door—what more do I need than these? I now work in such a fever that I produce thirty pages each day. I do not even stop my production to go to the exercise yard.Ah, nemesis, you now worry me less than the fleas that nip at my art—the insects my fiery pages will turn into cinder and dust. Their cowardliness cannot contain me. Their plots cannot stop my pen. Because I am no violable genius. I have thwarted the Tallyman.


James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000


“The Jackal People” Poetry by Joseph A. Farina

You who have worshipped  the cursing sun

You who have cracked the earth's side

Listen the negative joy of unreality

Listen the hollow labour of love

Listen Our cry:

       Day unbegotten, how was I born

        From a dying womb

       Cursed with a dead logic

        Spawned by the carnal pack

         In the long night

Children with outstretched hands and open mouths

Their bellies empty and raw, chewn and mauled

Children of Lazarus begotten

Twilight-

And from the empty Graves

Came fumes,

Dead air rising

To muffled drums

Hollow beats, silencing

The mute cries of unclean water,

Where The lepers bones float

In the shadows of light

In places now forgotten

Quenched of thirst

By the jackals light

The living dead

Rejoicing in the hungry world

Rejoicing to the songs of jackals

Cracking bones

In the dead land

The parched land

Empty bowels and

The hollow wind

A dry bone is a good feast

A dry stone to crack our jowls

A dead image to put our faith

We have chosen and must abide

Pray for the unsung dead

So that they may rejoice

And stir a dry bone

A dead eye and laugh at

The quickness of our laments

Console yourselves with these words

And believe in the wrath to come

absolve our sins

Be not unmindful who beg for redemption


Joseph A Farina is a retired lawyer in Sarnia, Ontario, Canada. His  poems have appeared in Philedelphia Poets,Tower Poetry, The Windsor Review, and Tamaracks: Canadian Poetry for the 21st Century. He has two books of poetry published ,The Cancer Chronicles and The Ghosts of Water Street


“Night” Poetry by Edilson Ferreira

When night comes and sleep does not appear, 
I ride through unsuspected worlds, 
have memories even from days I did not live,   
by sure dreams I did not realize. 
The yearning is loose; I have to fill the void, 
so that I arrive in full to another day waiting for me, 
new challenges, new fights. 
The new day will be powerful and pugnacious, 
unlike me, one day older and not being able to hide 
on the face and soul, the marks of misfortune and sorrow, 
unrequited loves, dislikes and mismatches. 
I will show that I did not renounce the human inheritance, 
and, along with dear fellow ones I lived, loved and suffered,
having watered the road even with sweat and tears.
Always sure that we will reach, at the end of the journey, 
the promised land, and, unlike Abraham, 
who just had a glimpse, we will take secure possession. 
Then, dancing and partying, we will throw to the skies
sound and honest laughter. 

Mr. Ferreira, 77 years, is a Brazilian poet who writes in English rather than in Portuguese. Widely published in selected international literary journals, he began writing at age 67, after his retirement as a bank employee. Nominated for The Pushcart Prize 2017, his first Poetry Collection, Lonely Sailor, One Hundred Poems, was launched in London, in November of 2018. He is always updating his works at www.edilsonmeloferreira.com


“Lost Lambs” Fiction by Kilmo

The pale girl with the gold earrings like the crescent moon rubbed a hand through her hair and looked out of the window. Even with the creaking radiator turned all the way up she was surprised she couldn’t see her breath fog the air. Kata was beginning to forget what it had been like when the kitchen table groaned with food, drink, light, and laughter. She sighed and watched snowflakes beat uselessly against the glass. Past them, in the street, people were scurrying about like ants desperate to get back into the warm.

“Something’s got them excited.”

Keys rattled in the lock before a crash heralded her boyfriend’s return. Kata rolled her eyes. Twenty-eight years old, a grown man, and still Hannibal couldn’t open a door properly. No doubt the six-foot giant unfolding in the hallway had left a new imprint in the wall for the landlady to moan about.

“Any luck? You’ve been gone a while.”

“Same old story,” said her sweetheart as he strode into the room shaking snow from his favourite denims, the ones that looked they were held together by band patches. “But there might be something in this.”

He shoved his phone forward so Kata could read the screen.

“Maintenance? You’re a roadie. You push speakers about. Don’t tell me you know how to look after a building.”

“How hard can it be?” Hannibal shrugged. “Besides there’s nothing going on anymore. State says all performances cancelled for the crisis’ duration.”

Kata glared at him.

“The crisis? Is that what they’re calling it now?”

But Hannibal put his finger to his lips.

“Careful honey. You don’t know who might be listening, even here.” He glanced at the flat’s propaganda screen and the security camera bulging from its top. “We should go. They say it’s better in the sticks, and there’s something else.”

“What?”

“It’s back in our old manor. Should be easy to get on our feet again.”

Kata’s skin prickled. It had been a hard struggle to escape that trap before it ground them into submission, but she knew what he meant. The city was a black hole where the only work left was for the privileged with connections high up. She watched as the ants at the end of the street formed a line. A soup kitchen had opened its doors.

“I suppose it can’t be any worse than here.”

Two weeks later Hannibal and Kata were getting off a bus. As the big man retrieved their bags she shivered and examined the station with its smashed windows and weeds growing through the cracks.

“Home sweet home lover. How long since we left now d’you think?”

“Ten years.” Hannibal glanced up and fixed his eyes on her. “We got out when we still had a chance.”

“Remind me why we’re here again then?”

“Because it’s better than a slow death in the city.”

Kata looked at the rest of the buildings off the wide square, high, and institutional, they looked in equally bad shape.

“Hope you’re sure about that.”

But she kept her voice to a whisper. It wouldn’t be long before the city was the same, and with way more desperate people. They just had to hope the rumours they’d heard were right and the hicks were siphoning off the countryside’s food supplies for themselves.

“Wonder if there’s any of the old crowd left?”

“I doubt it,” said Hannibal swinging their bags over his shoulder. “Not the way they were carrying on before we got out.”

When Kata had met Hannibal he’d still been living with his aunt, and her own parents had disappeared not long after as if they felt the job of child rearing was done now their daughter had found a man. Kata had cried a little at first, but as far as she’d been concerned life without the constant fighting and drunken declarations of love had been a relief even if she’d temporarily lost the roof over her head. Hannibal and her hadn’t stayed in town much longer after that. 

“The clerk on the phone said report to the school for work and they’ll show us the house we’ve been allocated,” said her boyfriend as he reached her side.

“Looks even worse than I remember it.”

“Yeah… I’d forgotten. Where do you think everyone is?”

Kata was opening her mouth to reply when a scarecrow dressed in a ragged trench coat emerged from a nearby alley and blocked their path.

“The kids have come back.” A huge unkempt beard thrust itself in their direction. “No, not kids anymore. All grown up.”

There were eyes in there too, black, and beady, and filled with a feverish light.

“You remember me? Jim Devereux? Nah, you wouldn’t, too young, I expect.”

Hannibal and Kata examined the figure in front of them doing their best to strip away the dirt. It was Kata who figured it out first.

“I know you.” She shook her head and slowly a smile travelled across her face. “You were a copper. What happened to you?”

Devereux tapped a finger against his nose and gave them a wink.

“I’m undercover. This place is rotten, but I’m gonna clean it up. You’ll see. Drag each and every one of them to jail and throw away the key.” He backed away still staring at them with that bright light in his eyes. “Got to go now. People to see. Places to be. You know how it is.”

“I remember him chasing us all over town.” Hannibal watched the man shuffle up the street. “Doesn’t look like much now.”

Kata frowned.

“Yeah, but what’s replaced him?”

They’d been back a month before Kata began to suspect something was wrong, a month of checking who was alive and who was dead amongst their old friends. A month of calm reassurances that they’d made the right decision. Residential Sector Twelve was safe, dull, but safe.

The only problem was she was tired with the sort of bone aching weariness that had her dragging herself out of bed like an old woman, and Hannibal was worse. Kata stared at the pitted ceiling over her head. She should get up and start preparing the evening meal, but after a day spent with one of the sector’s volunteer militias lethargy sat in her bones like lead.

“At least we’re alive.”

That was no small thing since the fighting started. She frowned as the doorbell disturbed her thoughts.

“Yes? Who is it?” Her voice was barely a croak as she activated the grimy vidscreen and grabbed a clear plastic bladder from the pack that arrived on their doorstep every morning along with instructions for the day. As she squeezed the water down her throat the stamp of the company that ran the town caught her eye. Another quirk that kept the area secure was the presence of so much decaying heavy industry that the groundwater had long since been contaminated.

“Jesca I… what’s wrong?”

The woman on the video screen was Hannibal’s supervisor and her eyes were darting from side to side as she leaned closer to the speaker.

“Let me in Kata, please.”

Kata had never seen the teacher in such a state. Normally Jesca’s smile was a permanent feature and she brightened up a room just by being in it, but now she looked like a hunted animal. As Kata watched she pulled her daughter into view.

“Please Kata, for my kid’s sake. I don’t have long.”

There was no one in the street outside when Kata looked but she double bolted the door just to be on the safe side as soon as she’d let them in. There was something about seeing the only person in town who’d seemed to have a pulse in such a state that was a little unnerving.

“Shouldn’t you be at the school? Has something happened? Is Hannibal Ok?”

“I don’t know. I ran.”

“What do you mean you ran?”

Jesca gripped Kata’s hands so hard her nails dug into the flesh and stared into her eyes.

“Believe me I’d have gone elsewhere, but you’re still new. You’re not hooked.”

“Hooked on what?”

Jesca pointed at the water.

“Riot control honey. The answer to the civil war. What made you think coming to a pharma town was a good idea? This place is one big laboratory.”

“You should see the city. Besides, I was born in this sector. Nothing ever happens here.”

“Nothing happens for a reason. They’ve been feeding the population sedatives for years, constantly upping the dose to see what they can get away with and still have a productive labour force. But they’ve gone too far now. They want to start on the kids.”

Kata fought to think clearly through the lethargy filling her mind.

“How come you don’t seem affected? What makes you so special?”

Jesca looked down.

“I oversee distribution. I’m trusted.”

“Not by me. Her maybe, but not me.”

Kata pointed at where Jesca’s daughter had wandered into the living room. She was already slipping a pair of rubber nodes onto her temples so she could glue herself into her screen.

“You’re missing the point Kata. It doesn’t matter if you trust me or not. They’ll know I’ve come here. You can’t avoid the surveillance. I just need you to get my daughter out. Take her anywhere you like. I’ll give you money. Just take her far away from here.”

“Why don’t you do it?”

For the first time since the woman had started her story Kata felt a twinge of pity. The look Jesca was giving her was the same as a convict who’d been locked up all their life.

“They’ll never let me go. Not with what I know. Your parents were the same. Look where trying to fight the town’s board got them.”

“You knew my parents?”

“We were friends a long time ago before they were designated high risk and gotten rid of.”

Kata’s head suddenly felt as though a storm was blowing through it. She wasn’t sure whether to tear the teacher’s eyes out or start crying.

“Did you…?”

“No, I had nothing to do with it. I told you. I’m distribution, but not anymore. If they want to turn the kids into drones too, I’m out. My daughter deserves a chance at a decent life.”

“Hannibal…”

“Is still at the school,” once again Jesca was finding it hard to meet Kata’s eyes. “You don’t understand. They’d never let me leave and I wasn’t sure you’d agree to help me. They’ve only just made the decision, but it won’t be long till they put this place into lockdown in case there’s any trouble from the parents.”

Kata felt her stomach lurch.

“What is it? What have you done Jesca?”

“You’re not the only ones with connections in the movement. I left certain things where they’ll find them in case you said no. But there’s still time to do something about it. I’ll tell you where they are if you agree to help… please.”

The crack as Kata’s hand met Jesca’s cheek and snapped her head round sounded loud in the narrow corridor.

Kata glared at the teacher.

“Alright, then I better go get him.”

The school was a huge concrete block at the town’s centre. Once someone had tried painting colourful murals along it, but generations of kids had covered them with graffiti until only the odd splash of colour remained where even the oldest couldn’t reach. As Kata drew nearer she saw the lights were out. She pulled out her phone and tried another call listening to the ringtone before it was replaced by the flat whine of a disconnected service.

“You better be in there Hannibal.”

The wind howling down the street stole the words from her mouth with ease and she glanced at the lowering snow laden clouds gathering overhead. If they were going to make a run for it tonight they’d have a storm to cover their tracks.

“If we make a run for it tonight.”

Kata headed up the stairs. The entrance was open, but crossing its threshold felt like stepping into an abyss, and some deep primal part of her was screaming to get out before it was too late.

“Hannibal?”

Kata’s voice bounced through the gloomy building. There were lights on she realised just not the main ones. Instead, only the cabinets and their ranks of cheap trophies shone in the dark.

“You there?”

Kata’s foot met a bucket and water sloshed onto the floor. With her next step she found the mop, and something went cold and hard inside her.

“Oh…”

Hannibal was hanging from a knotted cord tied to the railing of a balcony. It looked like he was trying to see something on his shoes.

As she tried to hoist him free Kata’s feet slid on the photos scattered on the floor like the leaves of a tree in autumn. She knew what they’d be without even looking and as she finally gave up and began to cry with her face buried against his legs the grainy images of a much younger Hannibal with even longer hair stared back from under a banner with the revolutions slogan. Once upon a time the movement had played a large part in both their lives; although she doubted their lack of activity recently would matter. The association was enough, and the town’s runaway had been caught and punished at last for his escape. Hannibal would have known what was waiting for him in one of the crumbling state-run gulags. Politicals rarely made it to old age.

When Devereux found her she was curled in a ball staring at the love of her life’s fingers, the ones that would never touch her again, never caress her face.

“Come on get up.”

She felt herself being dragged to her feet.

“You can’t stay here. They’ll be coming before dawn to clear away the body. Probably already know you’ve found it.”

“Who will?”

“The board’s servants; they’ve plenty of those in this town.”

“Jesca,” hissed Kata, the name spitting from her tongue like an insult. “She’s at my house.”

“With her child Kata. Don’t tell me you wouldn’t have done the same yourself. That kid stays here she’ll be a drone just like everyone else.”

“You’re not like them. Everyone else… their eyes. They look like you could walk right up and shoot them, and they wouldn’t care.”

“Trust me it’s been done. They’re the perfect docile population. All the board wants now is to see if it can get the same result with the kids.”

“So, what’s your secret? Why aren’t you like them?”

Glass clinked in the man’s pocket as he pulled something free.

“I don’t drink the water sweetheart… prost.”

Devereux replaced the bottle.

“Come on now let’s get you out of here. You gonna take the kid?”

Kata’s heart felt crushed and sour, and she could feel the tracks of tears freeze on her cheeks as they stepped into the rising storm, but she knew she had no choice.

“Yes… but the mother.”

She spat.

Devereux stared back at her and she was surprised at the kindness hidden in the look.

“Thought you might feel like that.”

When they got back the house was empty except for Jesca’s daughter and no amount of raging from Kata could change it. The note that Jesca had left almost stayed unread, but if it wasn’t Kata that killed the woman for what she’d done her superiors surely would. Kata unfolded the paper and thought of the thousand things she’d like to do to the person who’d written it.

“Sorry…”

She thrust it in Devereux’s direction. One word had been enough.

“I can’t read this. Tell me what she’s got to say… briefly.”

The ex-policeman hunched over the paper as thunder rumbled in the distance.

“She says to leave now. She says they’ll be busy with her and what she’s going to do to their hardware round here. She says you won’t see her again, neither of you.”

“She’s lucky then,” hissed Kata. But as she looked at where Jesca’s daughter was still sat her jaw softened and some of the wildness left her face. She realised she didn’t even know the kid’s name.

“What are you going to do Devereux?”

“My job.”

The man took a long drink from his bottle and grinned. “They might not pay me anymore but I’ve a responsibility to this town. Well, what’s left of it. The people here were my friends.”

“Won’t you be in trouble for helping me?”

“Probably, but I think they like having me around. It reminds them of how untouchable they are. But I have this.”

Devereux pulled his coat aside and Kata saw the pistol slung around his hip.

“If I ever see one of the board I’m going to let rip. But they’re careful and they don’t like to get too close to the herd. Normally they just send their servants to do their work for them. This time though I’m not sure. This thing with the kids is a big deal for them. It’s the culmination of their program; the final hurdle. Afterwards, if it works, they’ll start rolling their product out to the cities.”

Kata stared into the night pressing against the window. She felt empty, used up, and it had nothing to do with what they were putting into the water. She’d no idea where she would go, just that it had to be away from here.

“Then I’ll say goodbye.”

“Goodbye Kata. I’m sorry about Hannibal. He was a good kid.”

Just for a moment Kata thought she might cry, but she was damned if she’d let him see her weakness.

“Come on,” she called instead as she went into the next room. “We have to get going.”

“Where’s my Mum?”

The girl stared up at her with wide blue eyes. She was a lot younger than Kata had been when her own parents had disappeared, but she still knew something was wrong.

“Your Mummy’s told me to look after you until she can join us.” Kata stretched a smile across her face she didn’t feel and took the kid’s hand. “Let’s get you wrapped up warm. We’re going for a walk.”

The storm had died down a little by the time they made their move, and the moon was visible sailing through the ragged clouds.

“At least we can see where we’re going.”

Fresh snow lay everywhere un-marked and un-disturbed and for a moment the town at the heart of Sector Twelve almost looked beautiful. Kata and the girl hurried through the streets crossing the open spaces at a run. Kata pretended it was a game and she was glad of the weather because it made it too cold to talk much. It was only when they reached the suburbs pressing up against the forest that she allowed herself to breathe a little easier.

“Mummy’s in there. In the forest. Shall we go see her?”

“No. It’s cold. I want to go home.”

“Listen,” Kata crouched until she was level with the girl’s face. “What’s your name?”

“Adele.”

“Listen Adele, we’re going on an adventure. That’s how you have to think of this. Don’t you want to see if there’s elves in the woods? I bet there are.”

Adele squinted suspiciously at the dark looming trees.

“What sort of elves?”

“Good ones, with tons of candy, and warm fires. That’s who your Mum’s with.”

Kata was hoping that the part about warm fires was true at least. She knew she was storing up trouble for later, but she’d do anything to put a million miles between her and Sector Twelve right then.

“Okay.”

They were halfway to the nearest trees when the first figure stepped from between their trunks.

“Damn.”

Kata veered through the drifts. She couldn’t tell if the man had seen them. Maybe they’d been lucky. Her hope died a miserable death when the next black clad figure emerged, and the next, and the next.

Soon there was almost as many people as trees spread in a semicircle around them.

“Who are they?” said Adele.

“Nobody we want to know.”

Kata began to step backwards dragging the child with her. They’d gotten about twenty paces before the crowd appeared from between the buildings. All that was missing were torches thought Kata with a bitter smile.

“Run kid. Your mother’s waiting for you.”

A narrow rapidly closing path led to the nearest clump of woodland on her left and Kata shoved the kid in that direction.

“Go. NOW.”

“But…”

Adele’s face crumpled and Kata waited for her to burst into tears. But the kid was tough. When she gave her another, harder, shove she didn’t fall to the ground or lose control. She just stared back at Kata with a puzzled frown.

“You said…”

“Move, these people are killers. They’ll eat you up and chew on your bones and they’re coming now.”

Kata thought fast.

“Move, you’re a horrible little stray I wish I’d never met.”

She glanced at the forest hoping the kid can’t tell she’s faking it.

“I think I see your mother now. I wish she was dead too.”

At least the last part is true and with a sound midway between a sob and a gasp the little figure was running through the thickening snow. Kata had no idea how far it was to the nearest settlement. No idea if she’d live, but as her back disappeared between the trees and the crowd drew in she was glad the kid had a chance.

“Never come back sweetheart. It’s true what they say. Going back will be the death of you.”

Kata turned to face the nearest grey faced figures with their deadly blank eyes. They were drawing knives.


Kilmo writes. He brought it from squatting in Bristol to a van in a pub car park, to “Dark Fire Magazine,” “CC&D Magazine,” “Feed Your Monster Magazine,” “Blood Moon Rising,” “Aphelion,” “The Wyrd,” “One Hundred Voices,” and now here.


“The Suicide Barn” Fiction by William Presley

It’s nothing special – another old horse barn, in another hay field, at the end of another dirt road. I could send you a picture of the view from my window, and you wouldn’t know if I were in Ohio or Oregon. (Slayton, 1992)

I put the letter back in my notebook with a nod. Shades of brown striped the unevenly worn structure, clashing with the purple sky above and golden field below in a way that seemed so… generic. It was like stepping into the painting of everywhere and nowhere that hung in any great-aunt’s living room. Perhaps that was what drove everyone who lived in this barn insane. Or, perhaps, there was something far more sinister lurking around the property. The families of the many previous tenants had hired me to uncover the truth, and after reading the letters that they had provided, even my rational mind was starting to suspect the latter option.

With a mix of curiosity and apprehension, I trudged over to the adjacent farmhouse. An elderly woman built like a fillet knife answered the door before I even had a chance to knock. Deep lines rippled through her powder-white face, and her pin-curled red hair leant her an almost Elizabethan sternness. “Are you the one who called earlier? About the hayloft apartment?” she asked in a dry alto.

“Yes, I’m Burke! I didn’t catch your name, though.”

“Let’s start with Ma’am. I-”

A groan drew my attention through the entryway and to an equally aged woman with a pudgy yet sunken face. She was hunched over in a wheelchair, her stringy white hair dangling limply around her shoulders, her arms resting on the kitchen table to reveal a patchwork of burns and scars. ‘Ma’am’ slammed the door behind her before I could take in any more.

“Don’t mind the invalid. You won’t see much of her.”

“Are you two… sisters?”

A grunt was all I got in response as she beckoned me off of the porch. “I’ll give you a little tour. If you like the place, you can have it today, but I need two months up front. And the security deposit. That’s another month and a half.”

The old woman flung open a side entrance to the barn, leading me up a staircase and into a surprisingly well-maintained apartment. Even with furnishings that hadn’t been updated since the 70s, it was hard not to find appeal in the completely open floor plan and cathedral ceiling. I wandered over to the twin bed in the corner and pulled another letter from my notebook.

Once is a bad dream. Twice is a recurring nightmare. But three times? That’s real. It has to be. I wake up every night with the shadow person standing over me. That’s it, just a shadow. It’s got no features. I can see it, though, because it’s somehow darker than the loft. I can feel it, too. It’s got nails. It runs them up and down my face just hard enough to hurt without leaving marks. (Quinn, 1992)

I next turned my attention to the window by the kitchen table; it had been referenced by several of the former residents.

You sit there, eyes stinging and head heavy, trying to down your third cup of coffee. Everything around you is snapping in and out of vivid focus. Breezes become whirlwinds, creaking boards sound like shrill squeals, and raindrops remind you of cannonballs launching against the tin roof. Then a crow lands on the windowsill, and you see the intent to kill glinting in its eye. It wants to dig its talons into your flesh and drive its beak into your eardrum. It wants to recruit a shrieking army to overwhelm you, to drain the blood from your body until you’re a dried-up carcass on the floor. Or maybe it doesn’t. Maybe it’s just a bird, and you’re paranoid from the lack of sleep. Of course, there’s also the possibility that the shadow woman planted those horrible images in your mind. It’s hard to know what’s real anymore. (Lane, 1993)

Eventually, I circled back to the front door and examined the knob, asking the same question I’m sure any sane person would: Why not leave?

I already told you that I can’t come home. She won’t let me. Last time I tried, the doorknob got so hot in my hand that you can still see bits of my fingertips seared to the brass. I guess I could jump out a window. What’s a broken leg if it means getting away from her? But whenever I get near one, a set of nails digs into the back of my neck as she blows a quick, raspy sigh into my ear. That must be her way of saying, “I go where you go.” And I can’t bring her back to you. (Hayward, 1994)

I then looked to the only other door in the apartment. It led to a cottagey, brown-paneled bathroom and adjoining closet.

I do everything I can to avoid the bathroom, but… well, the kitchen sink can only take so much. Eventually, I have to go in and bathe. That’s her favorite time to catch me – when I’m wet and naked in front of the mirror. She’ll turn the glass into some sort of… television… that plays the worst moments of my life on a constant repeat. All the beatings from Dad. All the Thanksgivings Uncle Gil took me into the back bedroom. Even the day Grandpa died. It’s like she grows from my misery. Each time I see her, she’s just… a little bit more formed. She’s actually starting to look like a child’s clay sculpture at this point. Her blue, naked body is womanly in all the right places while still androgynous enough to not be obscene. Her face, the part you can see through the veil of white hair, has only nondescript craters where the eyes, nose, and mouth should be. And her breathing… it’s so labored. (Martin, 1994)

There was a clear view of the bed from the bathroom doorway, and a shiver ran up my spine as I realized I was standing where she had stood.

I can feel that little gremlin of a woman staring at me every night through the crack in the door. At least in the dark, I don’t have to stare at her liver spotted folds in all of their nude glory. Too bad there’s nothing that can disguise her breath. She’s got lungs like a damn exhaust fan. Every gasp sends a gust of rotting meat whipping around the apartment. In and out, in and out. It’s almost hypnotic to watch all of the bodies hanging from the rafters as they sway with the rhythm. I know it won’t be long before I throw a rope around my neck and join them. (Hyde, 1995)

Notes tugged snuggly under my arm, I began to examine some unusual scratch marks on the far wall. “Have you had… many renters?”

‘Ma’am’ arched an eyebrow. “A few here and there.”

“And do they tend to stay long?”

“Long enough…”

I was about to ask if there’d been any unusual deaths on the premises when a single page fell from behind my elbow. The old woman’s expression morphed from curiosity over my letterhead to disgust at all of the names written down beneath.

“You have no idea what you’ve walked into,” she sneered. “No hack with a PI license could understand the kind of force at play in a place like this!”

I picked up the piece of paper, waving it in front of her face. “Twelve young men and women! All missing. All lived here. And yet, not a single death reported on the grounds! You mean to tell me that every single one of them packed up and disappeared without a trace?”

“Wherever they went, they went willingly.” She pulled out a handgun and trained it on my forehead. “I suggest you put those notes over in the fireplace and forget you were ever here.”

I pulled out my own gun, yet her only response was a low, throaty laugh. Loud footsteps began to encircle us. “Mother,” she called, “you have a new guest!” Seconds later, I felt the trigger jam up behind my finger. The footsteps grew louder, as did the laughter. But it was no longer coming from the woman before me.


Bill Presley is a graduate student in human genetics who spends his free time outside of the lab desperately hocking his fiction at anyone who will have it. His work has been featured by Strange Musings Press, Sirens Call, The Last Girls Club, and the Creepy Podcast. His debut novella, Aniela, will be released on July 6th by Little Demon Books.


Appearing in The Chamber on July 9

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

“The Suicide Barn” Fiction by William Presley

Bill Presley is a graduate student in human genetics who spends his free time outside of the lab desperately hocking his fiction at anyone who will have it. His work has been featured by Strange Musings Press, Sirens Call, The Last Girls Club, and the Creepy Podcast. His debut novella, Aniela, will be released on July 6th by Little Demon Books.

“Lost Lambs” Fiction by Kilmo

Kilmo writes. He brought it from squatting in Bristol to a van in a pub car park, to “Dark Fire Magazine,” “CC&D Magazine,” “Feed Your Monster Magazine,” “Blood Moon Rising,” “Aphelion,” “The Wyrd,” “One Hundred Voices,” and now here.

“Night” Poetry by Edilson Ferreira

Mr. Ferreira, 77 years, is a Brazilian poet who writes in English rather than in Portuguese. Widely published in selected international literary journals, he began writing at age 67, after his retirement as a bank employee. Nominated for The Pushcart Prize 2017, his first Poetry Collection, Lonely Sailor, One Hundred Poems, was launched in London, in November of 2018. He is always updating his works at www.edilsonmeloferreira.com

“The Jackal People” Poetry by Joseph A. Farina

Joseph A Farina is a retired lawyer in Sarnia, Ontario, Canada. His  poems have appeared in Philedelphia Poets,Tower Poetry, The Windsor Review, and Tamaracks: Canadian Poetry for the 21st Century. He has two books of poetry published ,The Cancer Chronicles and The Ghosts of Water Street

“The Tallyman” Fiction by James Hanna

James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000

Appearing in The Chamber on July 9

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

“The Suicide Barn” Fiction by William Presley

Bill Presley is a graduate student in human genetics who spends his free time outside of the lab desperately hocking his fiction at anyone who will have it. His work has been featured by Strange Musings Press, Sirens Call, The Last Girls Club, and the Creepy Podcast. His debut novella, Aniela, will be released on July 6th by Little Demon Books.

“Lost Lambs” Fiction by Kilmo

Kilmo writes. He brought it from squatting in Bristol to a van in a pub car park, to “Dark Fire Magazine,” “CC&D Magazine,” “Feed Your Monster Magazine,” “Blood Moon Rising,” “Aphelion,” “The Wyrd,” “One Hundred Voices,” and now here.

“Night” Poetry by Edilson Ferreira

Mr. Ferreira, 77 years, is a Brazilian poet who writes in English rather than in Portuguese. Widely published in selected international literary journals, he began writing at age 67, after his retirement as a bank employee. Nominated for The Pushcart Prize 2017, his first Poetry Collection, Lonely Sailor, One Hundred Poems, was launched in London, in November of 2018. He is always updating his works at www.edilsonmeloferreira.com

“The Jackal People” Poetry by Joseph A. Farina

Joseph A Farina is a retired lawyer in Sarnia, Ontario, Canada. His  poems have appeared in Philedelphia Poets,Tower Poetry, The Windsor Review, and Tamaracks: Canadian Poetry for the 21st Century. He has two books of poetry published ,The Cancer Chronicles and The Ghosts of Water Street

“The Tallyman” Fiction by James Hanna

James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000

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Support The Chamber Magazine

Visit The Chamber Magazine’s Dark Matters Gift Shop or show your appreciation by buying us a cup of coffee.

Your purchases help keep The Chamber running by enabling The Chamber to upgrade our website and increase publicity.

At Dark Matters Gift Shop, The Chamber markets t-shirts, coffee cups, mousepads, and posters with The Chamber’s gorgeous artwork including covers of various issues; pens with The Chamber’s motto and website address; and other merchandise promoting the magazine or commemorating issues (as the mood strikes the fictional Marketing Department staff–a.k.a. me, the publisher). Below are a few examples. Visit the Dark Matters Gift Shop to see dozens more.

“Danse Macabre” the Rock Version

If you are not familiar with the musical work “Danse Macabre” by Camille Saint-Saens, Wikipedia describes it as:

Danse macabreOp. 40, is a tone poem for orchestra, written in 1874 by the French composer Camille Saint-Saëns. It is in the key of G minor. It started out in 1872 as an art song for voice and piano with a French text by the poet Henri Cazalis, which is based on an old French superstition.[1] In 1874, the composer expanded and reworked the piece into a tone poem, replacing the vocal line with a solo violin part.

Danse macabre (Saint-Saëns) – Wikipedia

However, before the “old French superstition”, Danse Macabre was a medieval allegory for the universality of death.

Several versions of the classical Saint-Saens work can be found on YouTube and around the web. This is the only rock version I have found to date. I like it, though it is considerably briefer than the original work.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Appearing in The Chamber on July 9

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

“The Suicide Barn” Fiction by William Presley

Bill Presley is a graduate student in human genetics who spends his free time outside of the lab desperately hocking his fiction at anyone who will have it. His work has been featured by Strange Musings Press, Sirens Call, The Last Girls Club, and the Creepy Podcast. His debut novella, Aniela, will be released on July 6th by Little Demon Books.

“Lost Lambs” Fiction by Kilmo

Kilmo writes. He brought it from squatting in Bristol to a van in a pub car park, to “Dark Fire Magazine,” “CC&D Magazine,” “Feed Your Monster Magazine,” “Blood Moon Rising,” “Aphelion,” “The Wyrd,” “One Hundred Voices,” and now here.

“Night” Poetry by Edilson Ferreira

Mr. Ferreira, 77 years, is a Brazilian poet who writes in English rather than in Portuguese. Widely published in selected international literary journals, he began writing at age 67, after his retirement as a bank employee. Nominated for The Pushcart Prize 2017, his first Poetry Collection, Lonely Sailor, One Hundred Poems, was launched in London, in November of 2018. He is always updating his works at www.edilsonmeloferreira.com

“The Jackal People” Poetry by Joseph A. Farina

Joseph A Farina is a retired lawyer in Sarnia, Ontario, Canada. His  poems have appeared in Philedelphia Poets,Tower Poetry, The Windsor Review, and Tamaracks: Canadian Poetry for the 21st Century. He has two books of poetry published ,The Cancer Chronicles and The Ghosts of Water Street

“The Tallyman” Fiction by James Hanna

James Hanna is a retired probation officer and a former fiction editor. Due to his background, the criminal element figures strongly in much of his writing. James’ stories have appeared in over thirty journals, including Sixfold, Crack the Spine, and The Literary Review. His books, four of which have won awards, are available on Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/-/es/James-Hanna/e/B00WNH356Y?ref_=dbs_p_ebk_r00_abau_000000

“Snake” Fiction by Vern Fein

I was walking in my favorite park when the strangest thing that ever happened to me  occurred suddenly and if it hadn’t been so scary I would have had time to think about it, but I just reacted to my fear and ran away behind a tree from where I saw a horrid snake, with a white face that looked like some kind of burnt pudding with red eyes. Its tongue flickered hungrily and it appeared to be blind, which is maybe the only reason it did not strike me when I first threw down the stick that I picked up by the bench. It was a long, gnarled kind of bent stick which, I remarked  to myself before I threw it away, looked a bit like a snake, but I never expected it to turn into one.

            I was quaking behind the tree and could not take my eyes off the snake which kept writhing as if it were cheated out of something. There was no one else around and I was afraid to move because it might sense me and strike so I just stood there in panic when the strangest thought came into my head.

            “It is just a stick. It may look like a snake, but it is just the stick you threw down so go pick it up and throw it in the pond over there.” A variation of that thought kept running through my head. At first I was even more terrified as the snake seemed to be becoming more hostile and was the ugliest snake I ever saw. I remember when I was younger having snake dreams and there were always three snakes in them and they were all hideous and one of them looked like the snake on the path before me.

            I was frozen and had no idea what to do, but the thought to go pick it up began to repeat over and over and the more it repeated the more calm I got. I cannot explain that. Even now as I think of this scene, it makes no sense and makes me shudder, but I did  go over to the snake, which actually rolled over like it was a cat or a dog as if it wanted me to pet its belly. But I didn’t pet its belly, of course, and reached down grabbing it just below its head. It began to writhe violently and I began to run with it held out in front of me toward the pond.

             There were two teen-aged girls by the edge of the pond and they screamed in unison as I ran past them with this white nightmare in my hand, struggling to bite me. I reached the pond and hurled the snake into the air and, as it plunged into the water, it turned into the same stick I found and then floated to the top and began to drift across the pond.   

            I found myself shaking violently and saw that the girls had run away leaving me alone. I went over to the park bench and sat down and saw another stick which I had not seen before lying in front of the bench. I did not pick it up, just stared at it a long time.

            Then I remembered the only other time I had heard of a stick turning into a snake. It was in the Bible and it was one of the ways Moses tried to show Pharaoh that he had God on his side, which he did by throwing his walking staff down, turning it into a deadly viper. Pharaoh’s magicians were able to do the same thing so it appears it was not that big a deal, but they weren’t able to do any of the other magic Moses was able to do after that like turn the Nile to blood or bring swarms of frogs or gnats or any of the other terrible plagues.

            I sat there for a long time pondering that tale. I did not know what to do. Then I began to weep. I did not sob or cry heavily, just a mild but persistent sniveling and I did not know why, but I could not stop the emotion either. This crying threw me into a kind of reverie, a kind of day nightmare, maybe you might call it a daymare, but I thought that  word up later when I decided to write this account down after this whole incident was over.

            In my dream—it must have been a dream because things happen in dreams that aren’t real and don’t make sense, but appear to be more real than reality— a group of people came up to me in that park.  It seems they were brought there by the two teens who approached me with this group of adults. The girls were pointing at me and whispering and I was really taken aback. But then I saw that other stick before me and I picked it up quickly and threw it in front of the group, making sure that it was far enough in front of them so that, if it turned into a serpent, it

would not be able to strike. It was a good throw. When it hit and turned into a snake and began writhing and hissing—this one was a putrid green with a black diamond like shape between its eyes that made it look especially fierce—it was far enough away for the crowd to have  room to jump back screaming. They were in no real danger because the snake was definitely away from them and, unlike the other snake, it did not seem like it would attack.

            The group began to  shout at me all at once: “Who are you! What did you do? Get that snake out of here. Are you crazy?”. Things like that.

             I found myself unafraid and just went over and grabbed the snake and threw it toward the bench I had been sitting on and it became a piece of wood when it clunked against the bench and fell down on the other side.

            A man approached me. He was large and angry.

            “How did you do that! Why did you do that? You better not do that again!”
            I tried to say something but nothing came out of my mouth. I knew I did not do this on purpose and did not want to do it and couldn’t figure out why it even happened or if it would happen again.

            I tried to speak and  finally some explanatory words did come as I tried to tell them what happened, but they did not want to hear what I had to say and it sounded made up even to me so I just stopped talking and we all just looked at each other in silence for a bit.       

            Then an older woman with blazing white hair came out of the crowd and said to me: “Do it again!” The crowd gasped and one of the teens half-screamed.

            “Do it again,” she commanded me.

            “I don’t want to.” I said. “I hate snakes.”

            But the crowd began to whisper to each other and finally turned to me and enjoined, as if one: “Do it again! Do it again! You are special; do it again!”
            They kept chanting and chanting. I went over to the bench and picked up that same stick. Nothing happened, but then I realized that I had not thrown it down. I threw it down. It  instantly became a skinny, brown viper this time, with an exceptionally mean face, and it immediately darted toward the group that ran screaming away. It stopped short as if it knew what it was doing and sidled over to me and began to rub against my terrified leg.

            I picked it up. I did not know what else to do. I threw it at a tree and it swirled through the air but when it hit the tree it was still a snake and began to slither down toward the group who were slowly coming back but when it touched the ground, it became a stick again.

            I just shrugged to the crowd and then I snapped out of my dream and just sat on the bench for a bit getting my bearings. But when I looked down I saw the stick lying in front of me and I did not know what to do. I just sat there and looked at that stick wondering, if I picked it up, would it turn into a snake again?

            What if it did? What if every time I picked up a stick and threw it  down it would become some kind of snake? What would that be like? How would people treat me? Would they be afraid of me if I didn’t throw the sticks near them? Would they put me on stage or television or make a movie? Would it make me rich and famous!

            I began to be really afraid. What if I picked up the stick and threw it and the snake attacked and killed me? But I knew deep down that it probably would not do that even though I did not know that for sure. It was just a snake and they were afraid of people and did not ever purposely attack anyone. No, it is people who attack and kill snakes because they are afraid of them.

            I remembered how the snake had talked to Eve in the garden, but then it was able to walk on two legs until it told that lie and was cursed to crawl the rest of its days on its belly and be despised and feared by all. I wondered if that is why God turned Moses’ staff  into a snake instead of a rabbit or a cat or something harmless? The people would have been just as

amazed and Moses would have still made his point for God, but maybe the magicians could only turn sticks into snakes and not other animals.

            These are  some of the crazy thoughts I had as I sat before the stick for a long time deciding whether to pick it up and become dead or famous. Because there was little doubt in my mind that if I could keep changing sticks back and forth onto serpents I would become rich and famous and wouldn’t have to do my boring job any more and maybe a girl would like me enough to want to marry me, though a lot of girls don’t like snakes. I wondered, if I did marry, if my wife would also be given the power to change sticks into snakes. Maybe my family would have to live in a herpetarium or have one attached to our house and away from the kids. What if we could do this with more than one stick, even a lot of sticks?  Maybe the only stick that would do  this was the first one in the pond, the one I actually threw, not the one in the daymare?  Maybe that stick was enchanted and the one before me now was just a regular stick that would not turn into anything? Yet I knew I could not know unless I picked it up and threw it.

            I  also had no idea how long this power would last. Did Moses ever have to turn his staff into a snake again after Pharaoh let his people go? I know later he hit a rock with the same staff  and water gushed out. Maybe my stick would do that too or even other miracles?

            But why was I able to do this at all? Why had I not done it before?  Who or what had caused this to happen? Was this a gift or a curse and where had it come from? How long would this power last? What if I did it for a year and all these things happened and then the magic went away?  And, I kept thinking of course, what if a snake turned on me and killed me or my wife or one of my children or all of them or another relative or friend or even just a pizza delivery man?             

            Should I keep the stick locked up? I reasoned I would have to because I did not think my wife would want the stick in our room even if it never turned into a serpent on its own. I mean, what if it was on top of a low dresser and our dog knocked it off and it turned into a snake and killed our dog or hid somewhere in the house where we could not find it. No, it would have to be locked away when we were not using it. All these crazy thoughts went through my head while I was sitting there gazing at the stick as the evening shadows began to fall. I finally just got up and went home, throwing a backward glance at the stick, which was just lying there.


A retired teacher, Vern Fein has published over one hundred fifty poems and short pieces on over seventy sites. He has non-fiction pieces in Quail Bell, The Write Place at the Write Time, and Adelaide, plus a short story in the the online magazine Duende from Goddard College


“You Can’t Do Anything Without Me” Fiction by Christiana Hoag

The bitch. The cold, evil bitch. After all I did for her, after all we went through, she left me? She thinks she’s going to find someone better than me, that she’s such a catch? She’ll see. She’s forty-five with a triple chin and Coke-bottle legs. She’ll fucking see who she gets. I’ll let her have her little life alone without me and she’ll come running back just like she did when she first moved out five months ago. She called me up, crying hysterically from her car in some parking garage in Midtown. I took her back, I should’nt have but I love her. I love her to death.

See, what Cath don’t understand is I know her better than she knows herself. When I met her in Jersey two years ago, she came across so sweet and innocent, all loyalty and integrity. I fell for it. She had a great act going. She should’ve won an Academy Award. All she wanted was a way to get to New York and there I was.

I rescued her from that dump in Jersey, you know. She was in a small town way down the Garden State Parkway. I met her when I went down the Shore for a weekend. She was set up there with a nice house and a good job running a beauty salon and everything. I went into the salon for a haircut and stared at her the whole time in the mirror. She was so cute. Big eyes and a tiny, freckled nose. I asked her out. She said it would be a conflict of interest to go out with a client. I pushed. She acted kind of annoyed and said she had a boyfriend.

“Are you in love with him?” I asked. She didn’t answer, just snipped. I knew I could reel her in.

I kept going down the Shore, dropping by the salon, bringing her flowers and chocolates. That always works with girls. I called her all the time when I went back to Manhattan. We talked for hours. She started telling me all her private stuff. I knew she liked me. I went down in the middle of the week once just to check up on her. You never know with women. They’re sneaky, secretive. That was Cath all right, but I didn’t find that out til later. Anyway, I waited around the corner from her salon and I saw this asshole pick her up. Well, she sure didn’t go for looks, I’ll say that much. Sure enough, two months later, she called. “Jimmy, you’ll be very happy to hear this. I ended it with that guy.” I was down the Shore that weekend.

From then on, every time I went back to New York, I was back down the Shore a couple days later. I couldn’t stand not knowing where she was, who she was with. I was so in love with her. She cleared out a couple drawers for me in her dresser and stocked the fridge with stuff I like, purple Vitamin Water and chocolate protein shakes. I cleaned the bathroom for her, paid for a maid, just once though, she was fucking expensive. Cath bought me a real nice suit. When she moved out, I was going to rip it up, but I like it too much.

Cath blames me now for ruining her life? She wasn’t doing shit in South Jersey. And she was a good hairdresser. She needed to get out of that dump and work at one of the salons on Fifth Avenue where she could make some real money. That’s what I told her, anyway. See, I’ll let you in on something. I wanted to get her away from all her friends. I had to get her to New York so I could have her to myself and she’d depend on me.

Lucky for me, Cath didn’t have a lot of friends and she wasn’t close to her family. She wasn’t one of these girls always on the phone telling her mother or friends everything. I told her I liked her kind of being a loner, so she’d make more of an effort to be like that. Like I always told her that people were jealous of her, so she had to keep a distance from them. Like her nosy neighbor.

She also had a younger friend who was always dating and going out on the town. I told Cath she should have friends more her own age. That girl was too young for her. “Hon, you got so much more going for you than all these people,” I’d say. “I’m the only one who sees your true worth.” She’d laugh it off, but I could tell it soaked in. I’m pretty good at figuring people out.

I knew I could convince her to move to New York if I pushed hard enough. Most people are afraid to push for what they want. I’m not. I laid it on one night when we were walking along the Boardwalk in Atlantic City.

“Cath, you’re forty-three. This is your last chance to make something of yourself. That salon is a shithole. You need to open your own salon in Manhattan. I can get you clients. I have a good real estate contact to find a locale. I’ll remodel the place.” I kept it up, too, kept hammering her. Like I said, some people you just have to push.

She didn’t believe me until I took her to New York and showed her around and introduced her to my contacts. I knew a lot of people through my contracting business, although I haven’t done too great for a couple years. I took her to fancy restaurants and clubs. I bought her clothes at Saks. She didn’t want me to, but I insisted. I wanted to dress her up and take her out and show her off. She had a great body for a broad her age.

That’s one thing I always liked about her. She never really realized what she had. I bought her a tan leather jacket that looks just like mine and a couple dresses, some short shorts. I never should’ve bought her clothes. She was probably going on dates in that form-fitting black dress I bought her. I should’ve taken a pair of scissors to that dress before she left, cut it up like I did with all her photos.

Cath wasn’t like other girls I went out with. She was hard to impress. I had to really work at it, but I know how to turn on the charm. Hell, I’m a charming guy. I’m a good catch. I know I am. I took her for a special weekend to Southampton. I took another girlfriend there before Cath so I knew it would work.

I massaged her feet and made her a special bath with salts and everything. “I’m the only one to see the real you, the only one who really appreciates you and who you are, hon. Everyone else passes you by, but I see you for you.”

“No one has ever made me feel like this, Jimmy,” she said. “I think you were sent to me from heaven. You’re my reward for doing the right thing my whole life.” I practically melted when she said that.

“I want to marry you,” I said. “I want to have a baby with you.”

I know I have a problem with truthfulness, but this really was true. Cath really was my dream girl. If I married her and got her pregnant, she’d never run away from me. That’s what’s happened with me my whole life. People saw the real me and ran away. But Cath was different, or so I thought. Now I see how she sucked me in big time. She brought me coffee and an English muffin in bed every morning. If I told her I wanted more butter, she’d make it with more butter, crispier, she’d make it crispier. She even cut my toenails. She was really into doing that.

I love those crazy little quirks of hers. Sometimes I’d make her do stuff for me just to test how far she’d go. She came home from work one day to help me look for my keys. I’m always losing stuff. She brought gas to me when I ran out on the highway. She drove me twenty-five miles to the hospital when I had to have tests, went back to work and then drove back to get me. No one took care of me like that, except my mother. She even has red hair like Ma. Cath is very kind, she really is.

I wish we could go back to that time, to the beginning. Why can’t it be like that again?

You know, that fucking bitch left me without a dime in my pocket. Man, she’s the cheapest broad I ever met. She uses coupons and buys gas at the Thrifty gas station. She has all this money in the bank from the sale of her house. The last time I checked her statement, it was more than $300,000. She’s selfish and ungrateful, just like all the rest. I admit I lost my temper a couple times about her being a tightwad, but it worked. She started paying for more stuff to prove to me she wasn’t cheap, that she wasn’t just like all the rest. Like I told you, I know people.

But I’m getting sidetracked. Where was I? Yeah, so I got her to quit her job and sell her house and move to Manhattan. She wanted to just take some time off work and just rent out her house, but I talked her out of that. Pretty amazing, huh? I mean my dick ain’t that big. She went and told my buddy George I manipulated her. She’s nothing but a fucking con artist herself.

Cath was shy, hardly said a word around other people. It was better that way because she would say the wrong thing unless I told her exactly what to say. I mean I was so happy I had a girlfriend I took her around to meet all my connections and introduced her as my fiancée so they’d know she was a real girlfriend, not some bimbo. We dropped in once on Sheldon Squirel. I retiled his bathroom. He’s a hasbeen, but he still acts, reality shows and stuff. He asked her where she lived. She said, “The Village.” I couldn’t believe it. When we got back in the car, I yelled at her.

“You should’ve said ‘with Jimmy, in the Village with Jimmy’. Now he’s going to think we’re not really together. You don’t realize that people are jealous, Cath. You just don’t have the life experience I have. People are always going to try to drive a wedge between a couple, so they look for any kind of hole.”

She started crying. That always made me feel bad, so I softened up. “We have to present a united front at all times, Cath. It’s for our own good. I got ten years on you. You don’t know people like I do.”

I know I get mad. I can’t help it. But she really knew how to push my buttons. She was always too nice to men. I don’t mean the things I say when I’m mad. I mean, the names I called her, it was just because I was mad. That’s all. She knows that. I feel so much better after I get mad. Like I need to get something out. But Cath made a big deal out of it. She was always a dramatic Annie, always exaggerating things.

Like when I grabbed her wrist and she fell against the bed. It was nothing, just a small push. So what? She made out like I threw her. She didn’t even get hurt. I was upset because she was packing her bags to leave me. That was soon after I brought her to New York. I would never hit a girl. My father taught me to respect women. I blocked the front door and grabbed her shoulders.

 “Do you want to throw away everything we have together?” I hugged her. “I love you. It won’t happen again. I promise.” She dropped her bags and hugged me back.

Another time she says I kicked the door in and smashed a lamp. I don’t remember doing that. She almost called some domestic violence hotline on me. Can you believe that shit? That would’ve ruined my reputation. Good thing I got friends in the police department. I made sure she knew that, too. She should’ve understood. She knows I have low self-esteem.

Yeah, I know I’m fucked up. Who isn’t? Cath? She’s unsteady, passive-aggressive shit from growing up with an alcoholic father. She just puts on a good front. I told her things I never told anyone before, you know, shit about my childhood. My father used to smack me around, take me out back and lay into me because he felt like it.

Then he’d take me to the emergency room when I couldn’t see good or got a headache that wouldn’t quit. I lied to the nuns at school about how I got the bruises. Told them I fell. I guess he got a little carried away, but them were different days. Everybody hit their kids back then. I woulda been a delinquent if he didn’t slap me around.

I never told anyone that shit, except Cath. I went deep with her. She was very caring. She knows a lot about me, too much. But I know a lot about her, too. I made sure I got all her secrets out of her right up front. Like her abortion, her affair with a married man. Secrets are good weapons in fights. I used them against her but so what. Cath knew they were just words. She knew how I was. I always made it up to her. I apologized. I promised to see a shrink.

“I can’t live without you, Cath,” I told her. “You’re the best thing that ever happened to me.” That’s true, it really is. I had a real home with her. I felt like one of the guys, you know, with their wives always calling, nagging when they were coming home for dinner. I miss her. I miss her a lot.

When she moved out, she hid in a hotel. She did that just to make me come after her. She liked drama. I went from hotel to hotel looking for her. She accused me of stalking her. Can you believe that? It was romantic, that’s what it was. Then she got her own place and a job, and we got back together again.

She needed me like I needed her. We were meant for each other. I know I made mistakes. She knew I wasn’t good at relationships. Then five months later, she broke up with me just when I was going to take her on a trip to the Bahamas. I had it all planned out, and I was paying for everything to make up to her for the Hawaii trip. We went to Hawaii and well, I made her use her airline miles and pay for stuff. She was too nice to this friend of mine and I got jealous. We had a big fight. So, I was making it up to her. Yeah, I still had to put a few things on her credit card, but I was going to pay her back.

Then all of a sudden, she didn’t want to go. She had no thought for the effort I put into planning for that trip. All the selfish bitch ever thought about was herself. “Jimmy, I told you I only wanted to go for five days, but you went ahead and booked it for ten. It’s always all about you.” That’s what she told me. But she didn’t want to go at all.

She goes, “You’ll go into a rage. You’ll get jealous because I’ll talk to the waiter or something and you’ll start raging. You’re not safe to be with.”

“So?” I says. “You can get on a plane and go home early.”

She goes, “So I have to have my vacation ruined at any time because of your rages.” Then she launched her grenade. “You know something, Jimmy. You’re never going to change. This is it, end of the road. I don’t want to do this anymore.” The bitch got in her car and drove off. She left me standing there in the middle of the street. And I knew she wasn’t going to come back to me this time. I knew it.

I tried to get her to see me, for coffee, anything, just as friends. I knew if I got her in front of me, I’d get her. She wouldn’t be able to resist. But she wouldn’t do it. She changed her phone number. Bitch. She thinks she can just push me away like that. Fucking asshole.   

She really changed. That wasn’t the girl I fell in love with. Maybe it was her new friends at work, the shrink she’d been seeing. People were putting things into her head. She must’ve had someone waiting in the wings already. Her boss. I saw him looking at her.   So, go ahead, Cath, go right ahead. You’ll never meet anyone like me again. You think you can make it on your own?  You’ll see. You’ll fucking see. You can’t do anything without me.


Christina Hoag is a former journalist and the author of novels “Girl on the Brink” and “Skin of Tattoos” In 2020, her fiction and nonfiction won awards in the International Human Rights Arts Festival and the Soul-Making Keats Writing Competition. www.christinahoag.com.


“Granny Miller’s Grave Situation” Fiction by Charles Robertson

A thump sounded from Granny’s coffin. Eunice leaned forward from her front-row pew and looked around the church. The congregation sat silently, fixated on Reverend Parker’s eulogy. No one seemed to notice anything unusual. Maybe the sound was nothing more than Eunice’s overactive imagination.

Another thump came from the coffin, louder this time. The reverend paused and looked toward the casket.

Eunice sat up straight and scowled. This couldn’t be happening again, not when they were so close to finally putting that woman in the ground. If only the old hag would stay quiet just a little bit longer.

Eunice held a handkerchief to her cheek and wiped away an imaginary tear. “Oh, Lord, why did she have ta’ go now? Why, why, why?”

Eunice poked her husband, Amos. He leaned forward, his head slumping on his chest. A snore escaped from his throat. She shook his arm. His head shifted but he continued his slumber. Dang good-for-nothing husband.

She nudged her sister-in-law, on the other side of her, and whispered, “Help me, Rose, they’ll hear Granny.” 

Rose tilted her head toward the ceiling and bawled. “Oh, Granny, Granny. It’s too soon for you ta’ go.”

Eunice looked across at Rose’s husband, Festus. He slumped with his head back, also pointed at the ceiling. He was as useless as Amos.

A whole series of bangs now rattled from the coffin. Eunice wailed until her throat felt scratchy, but it couldn’t compete with the sound.

The flower vase on top of the coffin slid off and shattered on the floor. Granny screamed from inside, “Dab blame it, git me outta here now! Tommy! Tommy, where in blazes are ya?”

Reverend Parker stared with wide eyes at the coffin.

Tommy sprang from his seat on the second row and pulled a claw hammer from the pocket of his coat. He ripped the lid off the coffin and up sat a glossy-eyed Granny Miller.

She leaned over the edge of the coffin and hugged Tommy. “I’m so glad yer here. I was afraid they’d done buried me.”

The congregation stood and shouted, “It’s a miracle! Halleluiah! Praise Jesus!”

Eunice frowned. Didn’t the people know by now? No miracle had happened. This was a result of Granny’s strange new condition.

As the congregation filed out of the church and headed to their horses and wagons, still rumbling about the supposed miracle that had just happened, Reverend Parker walked up to Granny, his skin as pale as a ghost. “Missus Miller, please forgive me! I was willing to swear on my Bible you were really dead this time. I’ve never had a situation like this in all my years wearing the cloth.”

Eunice stepped up to the reverend. “It’s all right. These spells’ve fooled a lot o’ other folks too. I’d hang on ta’ that eulogy, though. It’s a dandy an’ ya never know how soon ya’ll need it again.” 

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Tommy brought the wagon to a stop in front of the house and helped Granny off. Eunice and Rose jumped to the ground, their feet aching so much they could barely stand. They should have at least broken in their new shoes before they tried to walk in them. Amos and Festus had decided to find their own way home, and of course their route took them past the saloon.

Ahead of her, Tommy guided Granny onto the porch and through the front door. Eunice stumbled into the parlor to find Tommy settling the old woman onto the sofa.

He bent down to her. “Would ya like me ta’ git ya some water? Ain’t nothin’ like cool well water ta’ soothe a body’s nerves.”

Granny reached up with shaky hands and hugged him. “My precious grandson. What would I ever do without ya? Yer Ma and Pa would be so proud of ya’ if they was still alive today.”

Eunice gave Granny a forced smile and went straight upstairs, to the room she shared with Amos.

A moment later, Rose sauntered in and shut the door. “I hate that old biddy. I don’t think I can stand one more minute in this house with her.”

Eunice put a finger to her lips. “Shush. If the old cow finds out how we really feel about her, she’ll change her will. Then we’ll never see that money.”

“I swear, if she leaves it ta’ Tommy, I’ll walk out on Festus for sure.”

An hour later, two sets of clumsy footsteps ascended the stairs, accompanied by atrocious singing. Amos and Festus unlatched the door and staggered into the room, with the stink of whiskey about them. Amos grabbed onto Eunice and bent over to kiss her.

Eunice pushed him away. “You two stopped at the saloon again, didn’t ya?”

“Can’t a feller kiss his own wife?”

“Not when he smells like a distillery. You’re broke again too, ain’t ya?”

“Whisky ain’t free.”

“That was all the money we had ta’ git us through ta’ the end of the month. An’ there was this bonnet down at the store you promised ta’ buy me.”

Festus grabbed on to the bedpost for support. “Relax, ladies. The way I got it figured, it’s only a matter o’ time before Granny either has one o’ her spells again, or maybe even kicks the bucket for real. Soon, we’ll have all the money we can shake a stick at.”

“So, why don’t one of ya boys take a shovel an’ bash that bag’s brains out?” Rose said. “We could git it over with fast.”

Eunice held a finger to her mouth. “Hush, Rose. She’s right downstairs. If ya don’t keep yer voice down, she’ll hear you. Besides, what yer talkin’ about is murder.”

“An’ what we’re tryin’ ta’ do ain’t?”

“Not exactly. Nature put these spells on her an’ we’re just helpin’ it along. With her goin’ this way, nobody‘ll ever be able ta’ blame us.”

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Dinnertime approached. Eunice and Rose slaved in the steamy kitchen. Eunice stopped stirring a pot of beans long enough to take a peek at the husbands in the parlor. They lay sprawled on the sofas, sleeping off their drunkenness. Of course the men would never offer to help. That would be work.

“Cookin’ fer two is bad enough,” Rose said. “I hate cookin’ fer six.”

“It’s only fer a little longer. Soon we’ll be able ta’ afford havin’ people cook for us.”

“If I could put a little rat poison in the old woman’s food. At her age, they’d just think it’s natural causes.”

“No, we have ta’ be patient. It’s only a matter o’ time an’ then we can be gone from this place forever.”

Rose poured the beans into a large bowl. “Forever can’t come soon enough!”

The husbands shambled into the kitchen. They always had a knack for waking right before meal times. Tommy pulled out a chair for Granny and helped her sit.

The men dug in to the food like starved hogs. Tommy stared at them with squinted eyes. “Wait, Uncle Amos, Uncle Festus. We didn’t ask the blessing.”

They bowed their heads. Tommy folded his hands. “Dear Lord, we thank ya for deliverin’ Granny from the jaws of death again. Ya just can’t imagine our joy when we realized she was still with us. Please allow her ta’ continue ta’ grace our lives, an’ if it be Yer will, grant her many more long, happy years with us all. Amen.”

Eunice opened her eyes to find Amos already chomping on the best cut of meat. “Ya ladies put too much salt in the pork.” Slobber flew from his stuffed mouth.

“Yes, an’ y’all didn’t steam the beans enough. They’s still a little hard,” Festus said.

Eunice felt herself steaming nearly as much as the beans. “Well, why don’ y’all cook supper yerselves next time.”

“Na, that’s woman’s work,” Amos said.

“What exactly would ya call man’s work around here then?”

He paused. “Well, I guess the stuff Tommy does”

The sound of Granny’s glass spilling interrupted their conversation. She had slumped over, either unconscious or dead.

Tommy bent over her. “Hey, I think Granny’s havin’ another one o’ her spells. Is she dead, Uncle Amos?”

Amos grabbed Granny’s hand. “I can’t tell. It sure looks like she’s dead but the last three times this happened we thought she was dead, too.”

Eunice stood. “Amos, Festus, git Granny into her bed.”

Amos speared another hunk of meat. “Can’t we wait ‘til we git done eatin’?”

Eunice glared at him. “Git that stuff out o’ yer’ mouth and git busy.”

While the husbands were tucking Granny into bed, an idea popped into Eunice’s head. She climbed the stairs and poked Amos in the rib. “Now Amos, ya know this could be the real thing.”

 “Nah it can’t, Eunice. This’s happened too many times before.”

“Yep,” Festus said. “That ol’ woman ain’t never gonna die.”

“I think it is.” Amos and Festus weren’t too bright but even they seemed to pick up on the way Eunice put stress on the last word. “Now Tommy, go down an’ git her some cool well water. In case she ain’t really dead, that is.”

“Yes, Aunt Eunice. I’ll be back with a whole bucket real soon.”

Rose waited until Tommy was out of earshot. “Well water ain’t gonna bring her back if it’s just one o’ her spells. Why don’t we just put a pillow over her face while Tommy’s away an’ be done with it!”

“I ain’t gonna meet the Lord on Judgment Day with murder on my conscience,“ Eunice said. “Besides, I think I know how we can pull it off this time. Rose, I need ya ta’ slaughter one of the chickens an’ lay it out on the roof of the shed.”

“Ya know that chicken’ll spoil in no time in this heat, don’t ya?”

“Just do what I say. Amos, go out back an’ git me a bucket o’ pokeberries. The bluest ones there is. Festus, go ta’ the shed an’ bring back the stiffest board ya can find. Make sure it’s no longer than four feet.”

Eunice went down to the cellar. Rows of jars lined Tommy’s sturdy cedar shelves. The smell of the wood nearly covered the musty earthen odor. She found a jar of honey and returned to Granny’s room. The old woman still hadn’t moved an inch.

Tommy stood next to Granny’s bed, carrying a bucket of well water with a dipper sticking out of it. “Here ya’ go, Aunt Eunice. What do we do now?”

She patted Tommy on the head. “Go ta’ bed. We’ll see how Granny is in the mornin’.”

“But Aunt Eunice—“

“Don’t sass your elders.”

She watched Tommy walk into his bedroom and waited for Amos and the in-laws to return. They had a lot of work to do before morning.

#

It was already hotter than Hades when the sun poked above the eastern horizon. The day was going to be a real scorcher. Eunice sprang from her bed and slid into Granny’s room. She hadn’t moved or twitched since they had set her in there last night. Could she really be dead this time? It was probably too much to hope for.

She tiptoed back to her bedroom and shoved Amos. “Git up. We gotta lot ta’ do this morning.”

Amos growled. “Can’t a feller sleep a little longer? We was up half the night.”

“If you wanna see that money, you’ll git out o’ bed.”

Amos shot to his feet. “What do I gotta do next?”

“Follow me.” She stepped into Granny’s bedroom. “See. She ain’t moved since last night.”

Amos made a wide, gator-like smile. “Well, I’ll be.”

Rose entered Granny’s room, with Festus waddling along behind. She took a gander at Granny. “Do ya’ think the old goat’s dead, or is it just one o’ her spells again?”

Eunice walked to the door. “It don’t matter none. I think we can finally git her in the ground fer good this time.” She called into the hall. “Tommy. Git in here.”

Tommy dashed into the room and took one look at Granny. “Oh, my Lord. Ya mean she’s really dead this time?”

Eunice put a hand on the boy’s shoulder. “I’m afraid so. Ya’d better git the marshal. While yer at it, git the undertaker, too.”

“Right away, Aunt Eunice.” He sprinted down the stairs.

Festus watched out the window as Tommy left the grounds. “That ain’t gonna help us none. Soon as the marshal figures out she ain’t dead this time either, he’s gonna be twice as mad.”

“No he won’t.” Eunice said. “So long as everybody follows the plan.”

#

Tommy returned with the marshal. Eunice met him at the front door.

The marshal scowled. “She’d better be dead for real this time. I’m gitin’ tired of bein’ summoned ta’ this house just ta’ find the ol’ lady ain’t dead.”

Eunice started up the stairs. “Oh, it’s for real this time. Just follow me.”

Before they had even reached the top of the staircase, the stench of Rose’s rotting chicken hit them like a mule kick.

The marshal gagged. “Dang, I ain’t smelled nothin’ that bad since the time my horse died an’ I didn’t find it fer three days.”

“Oh, it gits worse,” Eunice said.

They went into Granny’s room. A cloud of flies swarmed in every direction, like one of Moses’ plagues.

The marshal swung his arm in a futile gesture to disperse them. “I ain’t never seen a body draw that many flies, neither.”

“It’s even worse than that. Try ta’ sit her up an’ see what happens.”

The marshal put his hands behind the poor woman’s shoulders and tried to lift her. “That woman’s stiff as a board already.”

“Look at the lips, too.”

“Why, they’s as blue as blue can be.” The marshal took off his hat and held it over his heart. “Lord bless her soul.”

“So ya’ll sign the death certificate?”

“Sure I will. It’s a good thing I hung on ta’ it. Somethin’ just told me not ta’ throw it away.”

“An’ we need ta hold the funeral real soon. She’s rottin’ awfully fast.”

“I hear what yer a sayin’. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a person spoil that quick before.”

They heard a wagon approach and rushed outside. The undertaker was passing through the gate, driving his sleek, black coach.

He pulled up to the house. “Mornin’, y’all.”

“Mornin’, undertaker,” said Eunice. “Ya’ll find Granny upstairs in her bed.”

“I hope she’s dead for real this time. I’m gittin’ awful tired of haulin’ her ta’ the funeral home every other day just ta’ bring her back here later.”

The undertaker entered the house. “Dang! I don’t think I ever smelt a body this rotten before.” He turned to his sons, who were just now climbing out of the back of the hearse. “Let’s git her in the coffin real quick. I don’t think nobody’ll be able ta’ stand that stench much longer.”

“The cedar coffin Tommy built is still in the shed out back. We can use that, right?” Amos asked.

“Sure. Boys, go git it.”

“So how much will that save us on the funeral?”

“The price of a new coffin, I reckon.”

“Will we have ta pay for the grave diggin’ again?” Amos asked.

“Well, I reckon so. When she turned out ta not need it last time, I had the boys fill it back in.”

“How come we gotta pay the same amount ta have the boys dig up loose dirt as we did ta have them dig packed dirt? Everyone knows it’s faster ta’ dig loose dirt.”

Eunice grabbed Amos by the arm and pulled him away. “Ya’ve gotta excuse my husband, it’s the Scottish blood in him. We need ta’ have the funeral as soon as possible, an’ the burial right after. She ain’t gonna last long in this heat, an’ we need ta’ git her in the ground before she rots too much. Ya can do that, right?”

“Sure thing, Mrs. Miller. How ‘bout if we have it at noon tomorrow an’ the burial right afterward?”

“That’ll be fine.”

Rose looked happy as a hog wallowing in a mud hole as the coach shambled away with Granny in back. “I hope that’s the last we ever see of that old goat.”

#

Just as the sun was setting, the undertaker’s coach appeared at the gate. The husbands and wives rushed to the porch to see what was the matter. The back of the wagon rocked back and forth like a ship in a storm and a horrible pounding emanated from inside, like a whole troop of demons trying to break out. It was not a troop of demons, however. There was only one thing capable of causing that much racket.

“Dab blame it, all o’ ya, git me the Devil outta here right now!” Granny shouted. “Tommy, where in Hades are ya? Tooommmmyyyyyyy.”

Tommy rushed from the house and forced open the back of the wagon. Once again, Granny jumped into his waiting arms.

“My precious little Tommy,” she sobbed. “Yer the only one ‘round here that’s worth a dang plug nickel.”

“Thank the Lord she’s out,” the undertaker said. “She like ta’ tore up my whole coach gittin’ her back here. I swear, she’s the most uncooperative customer I ever did have.”

Granny gave Tommy a big hug. “Yer so sweet, Tommy. It’s good ta’ have someone like ya around in my time of troubles. Tomorrow mornin’ I’m gonna have ya take me ta’ see my lawyer an’ I’m gonna change my will. I’m leavin’ all my money ta’ you.”

“That’s awfully nice of ya, Granny, but ya don’t have ta’ do that. I don’t need all that much money.”

“I know, sweetie, but I wanna. I think ya’ll be a fine executor of my estate when you git old enough, too.”

Eunice felt a lump form in her throat, which then sank all the way to the pit of her stomach. The money was gone forever now.

#

That evening, Eunice sat on the front porch, lamenting what could have been. Amos and Festus passed her as they walked toward town.

“We found a little money Granny had hidden away in the cookie jar,” said Amos. “I think some inebriation is in order at a time like this.”

They headed toward the saloon.

Eunice crept up the staircase and into Rose’s room, who busied herself packing her clothes into a bag.

“Rose, ya leavin’?”

“Ya betcha I am. I got a little money stashed away even Festus don’t know about. First thing tomorrow mornin’ I’m goin’ ta’ the station an’ takin’ the first train outta here. Ya’d do the same if ya was smart.”

“I guess I was wrong, Rose. We shoulda’ bashed the old coon’s head in when we had the chance. Now if sometin’ happens ta’ her, they’ll know it was us for sure.”

Granny’s shrill voice ruined the evening stillness. “Tommy! I’m feelin’ a little thirsty. Can ya be a good boy an’ git me some water?”

No one answered.

“I think Tommy’s still fishin’ at the river,” Rose said.

A moment later Granny called again. “Eunice. Rose. Can one of ya git me some peach preserves?”

“Don’t bother ta’ answer,” Eunice whispered. “Now that we ain’t gonna git that money, it don’t matter what she thinks of us.”

Her stomach growled. She realized she hadn’t eaten much today. “I’m gonna git me some peach preserves from the cellar, though. Ya want some?”

“Nah, you can have the jar ta’ yourself.” Rose folded a dress and packed it into her carpet bag. “I’ll stay up here an’ finish packin’.”

Eunice went downstairs and out the back door. The sun had long set and there was no moon, leaving the sky black as tar. She struggled to open the heavy cellar door and then strained to hold it open as she descended the steps.

One of the stones shifted beneath her feet. She tumbled down the steps, the door slamming behind her. After rolling all the way to the bottom, her head slammed against something hard.

#

Eunice awoke and opened her eyes. Nothing except complete darkness surrounded her. She held her hand in front of her face, but it was invisible in the total blackness.

She started to sit up, but her head bumped into something before she could raise it even a foot. Curious about what she had run into, she pressed her hands forward. She felt a solid wood boundary just a couple inches in front of her nose. Eunice took in a whiff of air. The smell of damp earth, accompanied by the scent of cedar surrounded her.

Her heart galloped, like a race horse just getting out of its stall. They done it ta’ me! Eunice pounded on the wood above her. “Let me out, dab nammit.” She stopped to listen. There was nothing but dead silence. She pounded again. “Dad blame it, git me outa here now. Tommy. Rose. Reverend Parker. I ain’t dead.”

The silence continued. Of course they wouldn’t know she was alive. She was underground. “Please, Lord, I don’t wanna die!”

Tears ran down her face. Her heart rumbled like an avalanche. She clawed at the wood above her. Splinters stabbed her fingers but she ignored the pain. She continued to scratch in futility until she passed out.

#

Rose sweated as she stood at the top of the cellar stairs with the rest of the family. The noon sun hung high overhead, scorching the grounds. Festus held one of the doors open while the marshal led the doctor down the steps. Eunice’s lifeless body lay at the bottom, under one of Tommy’s sturdy cedar shelves.

“Are you sure all this is necessary?” The doctor asked. “I have live patients to tend to.”

“Yep, I’m sure,” the marshal said. “We need ta’ make certain this woman’s really dead. I’m dog tired of pronouncin’ people dead around here just ta’ have ‘em come home a couple hours later.”

The doctor got out his stethoscope and bent over the body. He listened to her chest then pulled the instrument from his ears. “She’s dead all right.”

The marshal pulled one of Eunice’s chafed hands into the light. Even from the top of the steps, Rose could see the bloody fingernails with embedded splinters. She shuddered at seeing her in-law in that condition.

The marshal removed his hat. “Poor woman. She must o’ thought she’d been buried alive.”

“When a person panics like that, things don’t always occur to them,” the doctor said. “Funny thing, I can see how that bump on her head could have knocked her out for a while, but I don’t see any evidence of concussion. I don’t think it was the fall that killed her.”

“Well then what did?” the marshal asked.

The doctor pulled her face into the light. Her eyes were frozen in an eternal stare and her mouth gapped open in a silent, ghastly scream, like a horrific death mask. “Off hand, I’d say it was heart failure.”


Chuck started his career as a science teacher, but ended up in the information systems field.  He has been married for twenty-five years to a registered nurse but most of all a compassionate wife and mother.  They live in the Missouri Ozarks and have two college-age children.


“Sophie’s Choices” Poetry by Todd Matson

Take the pills
or not?  That is her
question.  Every.  Single.  Day.

Be chemically castrated,
lobotomized – a dead woman walking?
Or submit to incessant insults and accusations
from demons waterboarding a broken brain, conspiring
to conjure endless sleepless nights of interminable torture?

She recalls easier
choices.  Red popsicle
or blue? Cheerleading or
soccer? Prom with David or
Ben? Political science or maybe
psychology? Marry after high school
or college? Two children or maybe three?

That was before invisible hostile cosmic
forces waged biological warfare on her brain
and she was blacklisted by God and favorited by Satan.

Now she feels trapped under the weight
of watchful eyes in a 5-star restaurant with no exit
where the glaring demon waiter singles her out, snatches
the menu from her hands trembling with tardive dyskinesia.
“What will it be?  Milk toast or the live coral snake bouillabaisse?”

Sophie ponders her
choices. “Did the waiter just
ask me that or is this my insanity?”

Battle plan for today the same as yesterday.
Navigate between extremes of suffering
as one dead inside or delusional.
Negotiate the elusive release
of the hostage in the
mirror.  Never
surrender.

Take the pills or not. My question
too.  Therapeutic effects
or side effects?

Encourage her to take her poison pills and be chemically
castrated, lobotomized and morphed into a zombie?
Or be complicit with her biologically poisoned
brain that conjures legions of demons
from the bowels of hell to torture
her with unremitting insults?

Seriously!  Persuade her
to live as demon possessed
or merely exist as the living dead?
 
What
  does
    it mean
      to first do
        no harm when all
          that can be done is harmful?

Let her see what a hero
she is to be fighting
relentlessly this
intractable war
on two fronts.

Todd Matson is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist.  He has written poetry for The Journal of Pastoral Care & Counseling, has been published in Ariel Chart International Literary Journal, Bluepepper, and The Chamber Magazine, and has written lyrics for songs recorded by a number of contemporary Christian music artists


“Red Hibiscus” Fiction by Rekha Valliappan

‘Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore…’ ― Edgar Allan Poe 

 It was early summer when Moira, weary and dusty from several hours of  

extensive convoluted journeying, had arrived at last on the final leg of her sweeping tour  

at what was to be her home of the next few days – ‘Chembaratti Villa Resort’ – House of  

Red Hibiscus. Dusk was swiftly descending.

            A frosted white lake, red cacti, an orange island, and red hibiscus.  

            Her designing sequence for grad school’s painting portfolio was far from  

complete. She felt strangely dissatisfied.  Missing from the sampling of sketches and watercolors were twisted trees. It  

disturbed her increasingly when plans went askew.  

          She surveyed the picturesque main lodging house, with red-rimmed eyes. Scenic structures of dark

timber-beamed rustic cottages dotted the famous backwaters, that led to the pearly grey lake, undulating in mystical

movement, or, so she imagined.  

            There was no turning back. She was on her last leg. She was out of time. She

was low on funds. A lost listless soul crossing Patinir’s River Styx with boatman Charon. 

  Flashes of burnt sienna coagulated like fallen autumn leaves behind prickly  

watering eyes as she staggered inside, two banged up large suitcases in tow. She was  

exhausted. Three large ants inched their bulbous red shiny bodies speedily upwards in  

single file for a juicy bite off her available anatomy.  Welcome to Hibiscusland! Red! Wearily

she dusted them off her crinkled blue  jeans, watching them scamper purposefully to join hundreds of others swirling

in fractal  symmetry.  

            Red. Red. Red. Her series of current work. The red trail.  

            Now all she was seeing was red, like red soda pop fizzing up the nostrils.  

            The genial lodge-keeper Mr. Joy appeared, greeting her warmly, settling her in.  

Visitors from America were not uncommon. He had a honing instinct for 

foreign tourists. They made delectable morsels. He rubbed his hands gleefully,

hospitality unabashed, broad smile visible in the rumbling laughter rising from deep

within a portly girth, making up for what suspenseful dialogue and language could not.  

That very first evening he served up his famous house culinary specialties, with  

hyperbolic finesse. Bowls of fish moilee curry cooked in succulent coconut milk,  

followed by fried karimeen fish the local delicacy, made their way with dramatic flair  

onto the table. She had not expected a feast. She was over budget. All she wanted was to  

sleep. Her mind crashed in a sudden wave of numbness. How had she made it? 

             Crazy tour was how, crazily coordinated, by an equally crazy travel agent of  

‘The Penny Pincher’s Globe-Trotter’ super-lowest luxury package deal, as advertised.   

She was literally left high in the air. Nowhere to alter route, nowhere to reach middle

ground. One moment bouncing at high altitudes in mini vans through the arid Uyuni salt

flats, the next moment cresting the Andes. All the while searching, searching, after    

miles of ridiculous trekking, for the rare opuntia red cacti in flower. Then the long boats

through rain-soaked Madre de Dios River’s steamy rainforests teeming with birds and

insects in loud cacophony of bursting song. Finally, a profusion of red passion flowers. At long last jolting in bath-tub

sized tuk-tuks, for the orange islands off Pattaya, awash in vanda orchid hybrid blooms in shades of marsala, peach

and apricot of every hue.  

            Not the way her two-week brazen blitzkrieg was meant to unfold. Roaming the  

brush like a cantankerous wild wallaby.  

Moira flopped onto clean sheets eyes wide shut willing herself to sleep. The   

room spun, rotated, her thoughts thousands of miles away. She smelt a faint lingering

perfume of mogra jasmine wafting gently inside. She could not place its origin. 

            “What boro are you from, bro? Puh-leez take a seat,’” had gone this travel  

luminary from Queens, through the fogged-up confined spaces of a windowless cubicle  

he called ‘office’. Posters to exotic destinations in Jamaica and Switzerland and Dubai  

were pasted in elaborate graffiti on all the sides he called walls. The Dickensian chimney-stack was eyeing her expertly,

billowing smoke from over-worked twin flues off his  creased countenance, looking to connect. He was not sure she

made a good travel  customer. She had that look of being out on a limb. 

“Which one?” 

            The room held just the one steel chair. 

            “Never mind. Now this is what I require, please. Five destinations. Got that?” 

            “’Naw, I didn’t think we were neighbors . . .” 

            “Bolivia – Peru – Thailand – Maldives – Kerala.” 

            (Chuckling loudly) “And I’m to geddyu in and out of these spots in? . . . how  

many weeks didya say?” 

“Not weeks, aren’t you listening? 14 days . . . days! 2 weeks! Can you count?” 

            He had guffawed so noisily; it had brought in the Hebrew voices from those   

parts, on their way to attend services. Admirable crowd, for the spectacle they made.   

They politely wondered if they could be of any help. 

            “14 days?! . . . geddouttayere . . . Ma’am, I respekfully decline. Maybe I suggest  

you kinda kick butt somewhere else . . .”  He was shaking his woolly head like a  

befuddled jack-o-lantern, about to split. “Them plants have histories, bad histories . . .” 

            “And you came highly recommended. Should have known better . . .” 

            “Fuhgeddaboutit . . .” 

                 At the end of a structured negotiation, during which the over-strung travel

lothario had harangued his evaluations, and Moira had displayed singular abilities from  

viewpoint of low funds, and the over-zealous Hebrew voices who had popped in

compellingly, had had to divest yarmulkes to turn impromptu itinerary-referees, they

arrived at a compromise solution. No stopover in Maldives.  

            No twisted trees. Moira’s guts twisted in knots. She felt off the rails. 

            But it would allow her the extra days in red hibiscus land. Would do!  

The speed with which sleep overtook her, hit like nepenthe, the weariness- 

banishing hemlock she knew for a plant, whirling her into oblivion. 

            Next morning, considerably refreshed, she briskly roamed thegardens end to

end, through orchards of vibrant frangipani, sunbursts of sunflowers, balsams, and  

chrysanthemums. The only difference, not a single red hibiscus was in sight. How

weird! This would not work, this unanticipated set-back. Not to be outmaneuvered by

whatever was conspiring against her, a sanguine and hopeful Moira with palette,

sketchbook and paints in hand, headed to the waiting canoe, called a water-taxi. It would

ferry her each day to the center of the village. This was an unexpected bonus, if it meant

red hibiscus. 

            She set herself up, and in no time, she was sketching the old betelnut-chewing  

boatman, as they meandered down the narrow canal, beneath overarching palm trees,  

towards the pontoon jetty.  

There was much to sketch she discovered, traipsing through the village. Each

day produced something new. It was enchanting. Quaint storefronts, spice markets, rice 

padi fields, houseboats, shops with garish exteriors, music blaring. An occasional 

motorbike would roar past, its exhaust protesting. The cows loitering in the shade of   

the giant banyan tree lay quiet. And to top it off, there was masala tea. To her delight

Moira found she could drink the beverage by the steaming pot full. Forget coffee, her

daily mantra. Easy to be lured into this rural countryside, she mused. Easy to be lulled

into procrastination of her plant project, her real reason to be in this spot. Easy to forget

the passing days. 

Only, the days flew. There was no time to play catch-up. And still, she had not  

seen any. The red hibiscus for some reason were remaining out of sight. 

            The first stirrings of an uneasy restlessness fluttered fleetingly. Then came the  

day, when, almost out of funds, realization hit her that she must venture further on foot.  

Head out of the village. Buses did not ply the route. It was the only way to reach the lush vegetation beyond—to the

red hibiscus, hidden from sight. She must try. 

            Through a narrow-dried mud path that twisted some distance out of view, behind 

the copse of trees, she plunged. There had to be red hibiscus along the wayside. Such a  

common plant in these parts. Strategically vesting in all its believers eternal cosmic  

power. She would know when she found it. She had a fire in her. She had to find it first. 

            It was the day she met him.  

               She stumbled lost in thought, the red uneven earth ridged hard in broken   

fissures. The earth badly needed rains. Moira was in awe of the coastal monsoons in this

part of the world. But she would be long gone before the torrential rains arrived. Her  

mind was so far elsewhere, she scarce realized where she walked. Not a soul was in sight.

Not a single passer-by. All was still, the sultry air oppressive under cloud covered

dappled skies. Except for some passing goats which bleated feebly, she felt quite alone.   

            She must have been walking for two miles at least when she came upon three   

forks in the path, stretching crookedly in lopsided directions. Moira felt somewhat

helpless, brushing wet tendrils of long dark hair off her slender expressive face, as the  

mercury of the noonday heat soared mercilessly.  

            In the minute or two that it took her to decide, a tall young man appeared as if  

from nowhere, gliding silently forward. His stride was slow and measured, as if he were  

in no hurry.  He was neatly dressed in startling white, which contrasted starkly with his  

dusky skin and wavy dark hair, in a handsome sort of way.  She was startled. But his

lack of haste as he approached, quiet demeanor and friendly air, put her soon at ease. And

she relaxed. She looked around surprised. Where had he sprung from? Perhaps he lived

close. Introductions followed. Soon, the pair like old friends chatted amiably. Propelled

of her own volition, she followed, as they proceeded towards his house nearby, which   

he promised was a visual treat of rare scenic beauty for any visiting artist. 

            Along the way the young man regaled her with fascinating stories about local  

history–of the old fort, temple festivals, fishing villages, remnants of Dutch arrival. She  

learnt he had an affinity for red—a partial wisdom, he called it. Before she knew it they  

were at the picturesque waterfront. Sheltered in the neat clearing stood this solitary tiny  

red brick house. Its whitewashed columns and exteriors contrasted starkly with the small  

red-tiled porch, which held two cane armchairs, and a small table. The canopy of fruit  

trees beyond completed the pretty picture.  

            What arrested her attention was the unusual garden. A single gnarled old plant,

its tall twisted stems bent and leafless, reached angularly skywards, like a giant preying  

mantis in splayed repose. At the very top of the splintered twig hung a full blood moon

in bloom. A single red hibiscus.  

            A flower so red, so bright, so alive, its gold stamen trembled from breathing the  

Golden energy of the sun. The size of the fragile petals was as nothing she had seen  

before. Mesmerized, she stared with bated breath, locking in her heart the magic of the  

moment. Perfect, thought Moira aloud, grateful. This would do nicely to complete her   

art thesis. She need never have feared. 

            So, the young man gently obliged, a small smile of satisfaction illuminating his  

face. He brought her a wooden stool from within the house and helped set up her easel.  

Once immersed in her task, he rarely disturbed. All conversation ended. He had that self- 

effacing characteristic of cotton wool quietness, which bestowed on him a dignity and  

quality that eliminated time and space. She felt near and far. She felt drawn and  

distanced. She felt urgent and relaxed. This enhanced her comfort as she forgot the  

hours rolling by.  

            He took his seat in the armchair on the porch, and broodingly observed her in  

companionable silence, as she painted. 

            And so, a routine developed in the days ahead.  

            So enamored was Moira with the focus she had found, they arranged to meet the  

next day, and the next, at the very same spot that she had first encountered him. Their  

mutual camaraderie, and admiration, and obsession, was mystifying even to herself,  

immersed and absorbed in each other as they were, all else forgotten. Each day that  

Moira awoke made her yearn with a strange, desperate longing for more of their daily  

secret assignations. And for the strange red flower. 

            Then came the dreaded last day when her ‘holiday’ was at an end. Both had  

avoided discussing it. It was the day Moira had planned to single-mindedly devote to the  

red hibiscus alone. But their conversation had turned a trifle strange that day. More  

argumentative. Baiting. Annoying. He had never interfered with her painting before.  

He preferred green leaves for a background. Every corner of her palette was  

Matisse’s ‘The Red Room’  treated, none less. He suggested the ruby shade was not right.  

His hibiscus was blood red. She thought not. Not nearly the right shade, but close. He  

argued the color looked smeared. Red was difficult to transpose on canvas, she snapped,  

if he knew anything about art. A mounting irritation was rendering her impatient.  

            He was unrelenting, unyielding, not slipping up. He persisted the scale was all  

wrong. Not in Fibonacci sequence. Not in proportion. He would show her. 

            “Really?”  

            Yes, really. Couldn’t she tell, he was the reincarnation of the immortal Giacomo

            “The who? You? Never heard of him.” She felt defeated. She did not know

what to make of her strange companion of the past few days, who had always been

affable. 

“All art historians know of da Vinci’s famous apprentice.” 

            She threw down her brushes. Furious. He was being impossible. And the fact is  

she had a painting to complete. Mostly his banter had been appealing, sparse. So, when  

he surprised her with a confusing out-of-the-blue distraction to break the monotony, she  

was nonplussed. He desired they plant together a half-grown mango tree in his tiny  

garden. It would be their tree, to mark their futile art-disagreement. Her painting would  

promptly complete. She wondered why she didn’t just leave. 

Moira could not fathom if his invitation was in jest.  In seconds she was beyond  

caring, if only to get back to her painting–the red hibiscus. She was stuck. That was the  

day she ventured into his home for the very first time. She felt intrusive. She had often  

wondered why he had hesitated to invite her in. But had politely refrained from asking.  

            Small dark rooms met her gaze from the inside. Sparse furniture, bamboo- 

curtains, some clay utensils. The smell of burning incense pervaded strongly, an over- 

powering flower bouquet. When they reached his front bedroom which faced east, she  

knew instinctively where she would want their half-grown mango tree to be. Looking

out this window. Besides their red hibiscus. Their last memory together.  

            It took them the better part of an afternoon to plant that small mango tree.  

*                       

“So, where did you go today?” inquired Mr. Joy jovially, that last evening at  

dinner.  He had drummed up a rollercoaster spread of Malabar duck roast with chicken  

pepper fry, too mouth-watering to resist. 

  Moira was far from relaxed. “I found this cute little red house deep in the trees..  

Perfect to paint, which I did. And the backwaters, so soothing, so calm, so postcard-like.  

And this nice young man kept me company.”  

“What nice young man? There are none here.” He broke into loud jocular  

laughter.  

            “Oh, but this one is. Knows art history too. A teacher at the local high school.”  

            “Local high school? Nice line. But there are no schools near here, my dear.”  

            “Anywayz, I could not have coped without his help, or his house. I really am so  

happy and grateful. Thank you for my stay. I will be back sooner than you think. I owe  

him a lot too. But he has refused any money.”  

        “I should hope so. Made off with your painting, did he? Rest assured you will not  

catch him if he has. Mark my words.” 

            “Oh no! No. You musn’t! He is awful sweet. Really! Hope I did not offend him  

when I offered. All he wanted was nothing more than for me to paint what I found. He  

swore that would be payment enough.”  

             “Indeed! Now he sounds a real rascal.” 

            “Oh yes. I sketched him too, against the coconut palms. And in his tiny garden  

with the small mango tree, which I helped plant. And the pretty flower.” 

            “Flowers, my dear. This is heavenly land of flowers. We got them all. They

grow everywhere, marigolds, mogras, roses, lotus, carnation, sunflowers, blossoms.

What flower you want? You choose.” 

“But I found what I want. A single red bloom. The red hibiscus. Such an

exquisite perfect bloom. Shining blood red. Radiating large. Each bright petal perfectly ar

ranged. I believe I caught all the angles. I could not have missed. If only I had another

day.” 

            Mr. Joy was turning pale. “Red hibiscus, did you say? How queer! Are you sure?  

May I see the paintings,” he suddenly asked, hoarsely.  

            Moira led him to her room, concerned, her palettes in full view.  

            Whatever it was Mr. Joy saw turned him desperate, whiter.  

            “What is it?” cried Moira in alarm.  

“Where did you find this house? Oh, why did you go there?” He was yelling like  

one demented. 

“What is it? What is it?”  

            But Mr. Joy had rushed out of the room, a low gurgling cry echoing behind him.  

When he returned, he was armed with a long kitchen knife, slashing demonically at the canvases.  

            “Achamma’s story” he kept repeating, frothing at the mouth. “Bah, you young  

people, what you know about leaving things be, about love?!” 

Moira did her best, beseeching, imploring, pleading, following him in anguish. 

            The front parlor adjoining the guest dining room looked empty. Mr. Joy, ruddy  

from exertion had settled hidden from view into his favorite armchair, by the window.   

He was gulping masala tea by the mug full, drowning his trepidation in an over-sized

platter of fruit dessert.  

            “What, ‘love’?” Moira spoke in whispers not to alarm the kindly lodge-keeper,  

into another knife-wielding session. She picked half-heartedly at a pineapple piece. She  

was distraught. She could not think. The loss of two weeks worth of work was

unbearable and too brutal to contemplate. 

“Tale of unrequited love?” She needed to know. 

            “They all disappear. Only female persons. Now you will disappear. My family  

members, all . . .” 

            Moira shuddered at what was to unfold. A superstitious dread of what the  

narration would portend was enfolding her in its vice-like grip. However, much she  

wanted, she could not stop it.  

            Haltingly, he began. What was a deathly tale of impassioned love and tragic  

family custom unfolded in pieces. There was a bewitching young maiden with the  

flowing dark hair at the temple. In her arms she bore an offering of red hibiscus. There  

was an impassioned schoolteacher with the large dark eyes. They were lovers. There

was a cruel family betrayal of betrothal. In a young man’s broken heart grief tore so

savage, the entire little house by the backwaters, and gardens, were consumed in red

flames.  It was said the backwaters burnt red that day. Even the surrounding trees were  

aflame. Reduced to ashes. All perished.  

            Except one red flower.  

            The next day, it was said in the re-telling, villagers found the body of the young  

maiden trapped beneath the water hyacinths floating on the backwaters. She had  

drowned.  

            It is said some people see that single red hibiscus in full bloom sometimes. It is  

said when that occurs the maiden is roaming the earth in search of her espoused mate. It  

is said the young schoolteacher gets his bride when the red hibiscus appears.  

            “It has happened before. Many girls. Young women don’t wander alone out of

the village. My great grandmother vanished one day. Then, more recently, Achamma,   

my wife, some years ago. She was warned. She wouldn’t listen. I could not stop her.

The house itself is no longer standing. No one goes there.”  

            Moira’s stomach heaved. She felt sick. Her eyes shone with unshed tears. A cold  

shiver went up her spine. Urban legends! What else? She knew what she saw. And  

painted! 

Mr. Joy grew silent, lost in deep thought, his long tale concluded. He looked  

exhausted. He also looked ill. 

            Animated in protest, she revived warmly her fresh memory of a personable   

young man. In her excitement to reveal her daily routine, she urged Mr. Joy to

accompany her, to meet him. It would assuage his grief. 

But, Mr. Joy looked so appalled at the suggestion, eyes rolling to the back of his  

head, she was quickly discouraged, and desisted pursuing this line of encouragement,  

further.  

            She attempted a different approach, this time suggesting that she bring her young  

man right there to the Red Hibiscus Grand Villa, instead. 

            Poor Mr. Joy, he had heard enough. His countenance took on such an apoplectic  

purple hue, with an accompanying howl, she thought he was having a stroke, or at best a  

hearty faint.  

            He broke into bitter and sarcastic reprimand, unlike himself, yelling in agitation,  

like a man demented. “It will stop at nothing! It will stop at nothing! Think of the harm. 

Haven’t you done enough damage? Haven’t you heard? You evil woman. Awakened the  

red. Brought the evil poison back. With your painted death flower!” 

            That was when she realized how far gone he actually was in his own local

legend.  

            And she ran to her room, weeping quietly. 

            But when she awoke he was gone. Gone! And the house, and the bedroom in the  

eastern corner, and the tiny garden outside with its gnarled old red hibiscus, and the  

half-grown mango tree they had planted together. All gone

            Moira sat up with a jerk. Her eyes were wet. Had she been crying all night? She  

was sweating profusely. What had occurred? She felt unwell. The events of the previous  

evening came flooding back. Mr. Joy’s loud distress. His pain. His ludicrous tall tale. Her 

paintings lay in ruins. Slashed. Like a demon with claws had torn through them. 

They had parted amicably on a promise and a prayer. He had seemed somewhat  

distracted and subdued. Unlike his usual self. As if both were face to face with

something that neither of them could quite comprehend. She had seen it in his dark

eyes. The tumult.  

            If only Mr. Joy had not filled her head with his mumbo-jumbo.  

            Moira hurried with her packing. The taxicab to take her to the airport had

arrived. There was no sign of the lodge-keeper as she departed. Anyway, it was too late.

She felt acutely unhappy.  

            The cab sped past the village, honking loudly. She looked longingly at the copse  

of luxurious green trees, in the distance. Gripped by an impulse beyond her control, she  

asked the cab-driver to stop.  

In a bound she was out, racing feverishly down the familiar mud path that led

out of the village. She had to see him. One last time. She had to feel his stoic calmness  

enveloping her. She had to secure his last promise that they meet again. 

            All around was the familial silence, broken only by twittering sparrows. She  

reached the confusing fork in the road spreading oddly in three directions, where he  

always waited. She had never gotten around to asking him where the other paths led.  

            No one appeared. Not a sound broke the stillness. 

            She had been walking awhile. But now, she felt unsure that this was the right  

path, because now, no house appeared either. No replanted mango trees. And no

hibiscus. It was absurd. She was certain she was on the right path. Only it wasn’t. 

            That couldn’t be. Strange.  

            The surroundings looked the vey same. Tall coconut trees, two bent double out

of shape. How often had she passed those! Tamarind trees and laburnums in bloom. She  

retraced her steps back to the fork. This time she took the other path. She would keep  

walking. She would keep searching all three paths if it took her all day. She would seek  

her red hibiscus. Mr. Joy was a silly old trail-baiter, using horror tales to lure tourists. 

            She would find him, her art companion. All would fall in place when she did. 

            Her anxiety was building to breaking point. Everything looked different. 

            A burning pain stabbed her sides. She ran, stumbling wildly. How far or how   

long she ran she could not tell. Where she was running she could not tell. Her breath  

was coming in long, labored gasps. A parching thirst consumed her in the heat of the  

cloudless morning. Her surroundings looked altered, every tree, every blade of grass. 

Then, she stopped short, catching her sides in agony–eyes widening in slow  

recognition, then, mounting horror. She knew where she was. But it was unlike her  

paintings. She let out a low, anguished moan, as realization hit. 

Not twenty yards from where she stood, were the blackened ruins of what may  

have once been a brick house. It looked insanely familiar. Some traces of its timber, red  

bricks and teak were discernible. Still intact. Red tiles were in shards, molded into the

red earth. Most of the house had rotted away. The rest looked burnt to ashes. A

blackened half tree trunk belched ooze, like an unstoppable river of dark sludge–in the

eastern quarter, her previous day’s mango tree, they planted together.  

By the front entranceway stood a gnarled old decaying plant. Age, and whatever  

fire, or supernatural force beyond earth’s realms, or throes of unrequited love had  

conspired to destroy it, had twisted the once sturdy glowing plant out of all maniacal  

proportion. It was lifeless and leafless. At the very top, blinding the sun, was a most  

unusual sight–a single red hibiscus, her hibiscus, large and spreading as her

painting, but, in fading, deathlike bloom, so that, blackened striations intermixed, to hold

her in thrall. She stood transfixed. She could no longer move. 

            In seconds, a further apparition recalling Mr. Joy’s grim warning, completed the  

picture before her. Gliding silently forward in long measured strides, feet barely touching

the earth, as he wordlessly floated in and out from behind the burnt darkened rubble, she saw a ghostlike

blackness appear, take her by the hand, vanishing in split moments —– 


Rekha Valliappan has had dozens of her short stories, poems, review, interviews, essays, published internationally in literary, genre, print and online journals and anthologies, since 2017. Her mystery novella Rosewood was released in December, 2019. And A Pilgrim’s Push went online in America’s grand old publication The Saturday Evening Post. She has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net. Her website is silicasun.wordpress.com.


“Red Hibiscus” was previously published by Intellectual Refuge in 2017.


Appearing in The Chamber on July 2

The Chamber Magazine Cover July 2, 2021

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

“Red Hibiscus” Fiction by Rekha Valliappan

Rekha Valliappan has had dozens of her short stories, poems, review, interviews, essays, published internationally in literary, genre, print and online journals and anthologies, since 2017. Her mystery novella Rosewood was released in December, 2019. And A Pilgrim’s Push went online in America’s grand old publication The Saturday Evening Post. She has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net. Her website is silicasun.wordpress.com.


“Red Hibiscus” was previously published by Intellectual Refuge in 2017.

“Sophie’s Choices” Poetry by Todd Matson

Todd Matson is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist.  He has written poetry for The Journal of Pastoral Care & Counseling, has been published in Ariel Chart International Literary Journal, Bluepepper, and The Chamber Magazine, and has written lyrics for songs recorded by a number of contemporary Christian music artists

“Granny Miller’s Grave Situation” Fiction by

Charles Robertson

Chuck started his career as a science teacher, but ended up in the information systems field.  He has been married for twenty-five years to a registered nurse but most of all a compassionate wife and mother.  They live in the Missouri Ozarks and have two college-age children.

“You Can’t Do Anything Without Me” Fiction by

Christiana Hoag

Christina Hoag is a former journalist and the author of novels “Girl on the Brink” and “Skin of Tattoos” In 2020, her fiction and nonfiction won awards in the International Human Rights Arts Festival and the Soul-Making Keats Writing Competition. www.christinahoag.com.

“Snake” Fiction by Vern Fein

A retired teacher, Vern Fein has published over one hundred fifty poems and short pieces on over seventy sites. He has non-fiction pieces in Quail Bell, The Write Place at the Write Time, and Adelaide, plus a short story in the the online magazine Duende from Goddard College

Appearing in The Chamber on July 2

The Chamber Magazine Cover July 2, 2021

New issues appear Fridays at 10:00 a.m. CDT/ 4:00 p.m. BST/ 8:30 p.m. IST/ 1:00 a.m. AEST (Saturdays).

“Red Hibiscus” Fiction by Rekha Valliappan

Rekha Valliappan has had dozens of her short stories, poems, review, interviews, essays, published internationally in literary, genre, print and online journals and anthologies, since 2017. Her mystery novella Rosewood was released in December, 2019. And A Pilgrim’s Push went online in America’s grand old publication The Saturday Evening Post. She has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net. Her website is silicasun.wordpress.com.


“Red Hibiscus” was previously published by Intellectual Refuge in 2017.

“Sophie’s Choices” Poetry by Todd Matson

Todd Matson is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist.  He has written poetry for The Journal of Pastoral Care & Counseling, has been published in Ariel Chart International Literary Journal, Bluepepper, and The Chamber Magazine, and has written lyrics for songs recorded by a number of contemporary Christian music artists

“Granny Miller’s Grave Situation” Fiction by

Charles Robertson

Chuck started his career as a science teacher, but ended up in the information systems field.  He has been married for twenty-five years to a registered nurse but most of all a compassionate wife and mother.  They live in the Missouri Ozarks and have two college-age children.

“You Can’t Do Anything Without Me” Fiction by

Christiana Hoag

Christina Hoag is a former journalist and the author of novels “Girl on the Brink” and “Skin of Tattoos” In 2020, her fiction and nonfiction won awards in the International Human Rights Arts Festival and the Soul-Making Keats Writing Competition. www.christinahoag.com.

“Snake” Fiction by Vern Fein

A retired teacher, Vern Fein has published over one hundred fifty poems and short pieces on over seventy sites. He has non-fiction pieces in Quail Bell, The Write Place at the Write Time, and Adelaide, plus a short story in the the online magazine Duende from Goddard College